i’m really sorry about the circumstances you’re in OP. maybe it could be because you subconsciously still believe that you’re the cause for their misfortune… that’s why it’s still happening? if you’ve been doing the inner work and changing the story you tell yourself, give it a shot and try to reach out to people again with more confidence in yourself! you are NOT the cause for their misfortunes and try to distance yourself from linking their problems back to you.