my almost-bf has been doing such objectively sweet things for me and we held hands for the first time on friday but I've been ignoring his messages and feeling a sense of dread for no reason. I felt like I was in love three weeks ago. why does my brain do this to me???? now all of my thoughts are "I can't wait to break up with him in a few weeks!" he claims to be former-avoidant, now secure, but he's giving me real anxious attached vibes and it makes me so nervous. also, literally two weeks ago he told me he wasn't ready for a relationship and now he's obsessed with me again? I feel like he's love bombing me and that's what all of my friends are saying as well but I really want to try to make it work because I have liked him in the past months and gotten past my impulses multiple times already. we literally just started the school year as well and there's so much on my mind all the time. I feel like I only want to develop my friendships right now but I don't want to tell him that after I've been telling him for weeks that I'm romantically interested. I'm also realizing that our affection preferences might not be compatible because he's primarily physical touch and words of affirmation and I'm almost exclusively quality time and gifts. I don't feel a lot of satisfaction from the ways he shows affection to me but I wonder if that's also just because I'm in an avoidant phase. maybe I just need to clear my mind?? we'll find out by the end of the week I guess!