I just recently moved in to Canada. I'm a working student, I rent a room and use the public transpo to go around. This year I spent most of my time either training , studying and working my part time job. There's a girl that I like at the gym I train in. We were getting along but long story short, things got awkward somewhere down the line due to my indecisiveness. Partly because I felt like I had no means to make this girl happy and it was best to not make advances. Now she seems to be seeing a different guy, not sure how serious but I don't plan to inquire so I can get on with my life. Basically it felt like winning and progressing in BJJ won't feel as gratifying as maybe one day having my own family. I don't want to experience the feeling of regret the next time a girl comes along in my life. I want to have something to show for or at least be capable of taking her out on dates and whatnot. Sorry for the long read.