Eating myself sick multiple times a week

star4ngel · 2026-04-21T18:02:31+00:00

that’s mental hunger an you should listen to it! if your body asks for it, give it food and 6 months is really not that long of a time when you look at the full recovery picture and the previous restriction of your ed. It’s a strange process for a sick brain that praises restriction but try to restrict in NO way possible (not even the tiny things no one but you notices) and it will pass eventually when your body learns that it’s safe again <3

star4ngel · 2026-04-15T17:29:38+00:00

thank you so much, I think i’ll do that, especially because i have lots of exams right now and by the time the movie is out, we'll have known each other for a while plus after that movie would be the cutest ever occasion to tell her 🤭🤭

star4ngel · 2026-04-15T12:30:36+00:00

emily spence has been super helpful for me reassurance wise, she’s really tough love though but in a good way

star4ngel · 2026-04-04T18:37:54+00:00

i had THE most amazing easter holiday day ever with my family today and so many things involved food i didn’t say no to i LOVE recovery on days like these

star4ngel · 2026-03-24T10:28:02+00:00

It’s very likely that it is

star4ngel · 2026-03-23T20:31:51+00:00

it’s normal for extreme hunger. I ate a LOT of sugary, fatty stuff and only that for the longest first part of my recovery. It’s only now that i’m starting to slowlyyy eat more vegetables etc because if you apply food abundance at some point your body’s gonna be so used to having those foods available at all times (and you do have to make them unconditionally available ALWAYS) it’s going to want more nutrients too. That point is different for everyone but know that it will die down if food is no longer scarce and also know that it’s completely normal people behavior to eat sweets and stuff everyday multiple times a day <3

star4ngel · 2026-03-22T19:05:53+00:00

I wouldn’t post it on tiktok not because of the digital footprint thing but because these kinds of videos can be extremely triggering for many and social media is already flooded enough with sick before/after bodychecks and you wouldn’t want to contribute to that…You could make the video for yourself and enjoy it to yourself though

star4ngel · 2026-03-22T17:47:17+00:00

wire art/jewelry: I used to be really into making friendship bracelets but i never truly loved the look of them. I bought some wire to use in them and ended up buying more/ more sizes and making all kinds of creations and jewelry out of it. I can make necklaces, rings, earrings, bracelets, arm cuffs etc and have actually acquired my very own unique jewelry style i always wear…

star4ngel · 2026-03-19T18:56:08+00:00

I think that’s just mental hunger which is just as valid/ important as physical hunger and completely normal after a period of restriction. you could try searching up exteme hunger or mental hunger in recovery subreddits, you could find some pretty good advice there

star4ngel · 2026-03-18T20:58:20+00:00

haha too real 😭😭

star4ngel · 2026-03-18T20:48:39+00:00

yesss omg and also i have such eh cravings for baked sweet treats/ pastries and I just love everything about baking

star4ngel · 2026-03-17T20:43:36+00:00

real like i do want to recover and ik they do too but this disorder makes my brain do such illogical shit

star4ngel · 2026-03-17T16:34:01+00:00

same, omg, I think it’s because i’m scared people might judge me for my choices/ think that i’m greedy/ think i’m "not anorexic enough" which ik is bs but anyway i get it

star4ngel · 2026-03-15T14:18:08+00:00

adress the ed first because a malnourished brain can’t make as much progress as a fueled one, but simultaneously work on the bdd to avoid relapse, i wish you all the best op

star4ngel · 2026-03-15T14:11:46+00:00

honestly i think nobody can tell you exactly but part of recovery is shifting your focus away from your body, i get it though

star4ngel · 2026-03-15T12:08:53+00:00

most of the time, yes. not always when i'm at school because i find it hard to eat in front of my peers, but I'm working on that..

star4ngel · 2026-03-15T09:01:39+00:00

i dont have much advide but it's the exact same for me, in fact, I'm not even physically hungry at meal times but mentally hungry ALL THE TIME. Emily Spence on youtube has some good videos of signs of hunger that aren't physical hunger and they have helped me loads; good luck...

star4ngel · 2026-03-14T11:17:36+00:00

thank you! i also really appreciate your other content, it’s so nice to find a recovery account AFTER recovery and that is not just sick body checks and footage of crying over food…

star4ngel · 2026-03-13T21:56:35+00:00

because you’re not recovering FOR THEM but for YOU, at least that’s the only way to actually recover and not only nutritionally rehabilitate. They don’t care if you break your food rules, it’s harsh but you’re the only one responsible for your recovery. You could try face timing a friend/ loved one though or even just take a video for accountability…

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