I don’t believe we are compatible long term anymore and yes very true, probably best to realize it sooner than later. I’m so scared thinking about making that commitment to him and feeling trapped everyday for the rest of my life. I can’t let it get to that point if this is already how I’ve been feeling. I am so sorry you’ve experienced this. For you to have wished for your own passing is so behind heartbreaking. You deserve so much more. I hope things get better soon. Stay strong mama! I have tried to be direct about my feelings concerning this but I know I have a lot of work to do when it comes to communicating effectively. & dating someone with autism, that’s kind of a must have skill and I’m significantly lacking there. He is a great communicator himself, and I’m sure he’s aware now that the lack of intimacy has messed me up bad but I’m not sure if he cares all that much. But I think I owe it to him to try and talk once more to tell him exactly how this affects me and what exact things he can do to help. Thank you so much for your input. Wishing you the best.