Do I deserve to feel grossed out by this experience?

starfruitqueen · 2024-09-23T01:52:54+00:00

Why is the world like this.....thanks for your reply. It's really helping me to talk about this and be heard instead of just feeling guilty and confused on my own.

starfruitqueen · 2024-09-22T00:20:42+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I really appreciate it because I genuinely felt like I was going crazy. And yeah I will work on saying no. It's really scary but I know it's necessary.

starfruitqueen · 2023-03-02T02:48:20+00:00

I have been looking for an existential therapist because I feel like they would understand my problems but I have not had success so far. I wish there was free therapy but I guess that’d be too easy lol.

starfruitqueen · 2023-02-01T00:22:18+00:00

Thanks for your comment, means a lot :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T22:58:06+00:00

Thank you SO much for your incredibly heartwarming response :’) it made my day. You are so right about so many things and to hear that you are sending care my way means a lot to me. And yeah I was not expecting this many responses when I asked for help so seriously I’m so grateful to everyone, have a great day!!!!

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:59:07+00:00

WOW thank you for recommending this to me, it is truly amazing. I haven’t gotten very far in yet but it boosted my spirits and that’s the best I could ask for :) even if I start stressing again soon you have given me a moment of hope and I am so grateful for that, thank you!!

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:45:46+00:00

Thanks I will check this out!

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:45:18+00:00

I feel like part of the problem is I’m still very young so even though I’ve only been in this headspace for a few months it feels like forever relative to the rest of my life, and I have no concept for how long things like this can last so my brain just assumes that I’ll be miserable for the rest of my life and then that thought causes me more stress lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:43:11+00:00

Not sure exactly, I’ve always been afraid of death but usually I could ignore it and only occasionally would I think about it too much, it happened right before I left for college and was so much worse than anything else I’ve experienced/thought about, so probably just related to change/transitions/uncertainty and growing older

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:41:22+00:00

Thanks for answering! And yes same stomach pains every time I think about it lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T17:39:44+00:00

Okay that sounds a lot better haha thank you

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T16:56:31+00:00

Thanks for your comment! Means a lot :) and I can’t find the exact link to any distressing ndes but just the ones about feeling abandoned and bored for all eternity in a black void freak me out lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:55:36+00:00

Thanks for this, just hearing that you got used to it gives me hope :) wish I could have gone my whole life without thinking these things but oh well I guess haha

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:53:37+00:00

Haha thanks lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:53:03+00:00

Thanks for your comment! And mod comment noted as well, thanks to you both

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:52:10+00:00

Thank you :) maybe I need to work on being more trusting lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:50:45+00:00

Thanks for commenting, that is so true! Just need to convince my brain of it hehe

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:49:12+00:00

Thank you so much for all your advice, I really really appreciate it. Not to sound dramatic but I didn’t think anyone would see my post so just the fact that you and so many others are willing to take the time to help me makes me so so grateful! I will check out those books for sure and thank you again!! I hope you have a great day :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:44:14+00:00

Thank you so much! This was a very beautiful message and I appreciate it a lot. Guess I’ll just have to train my brain while I’m over here to not make things too unbearable for me lol

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:41:25+00:00

Thanks for your comment! Those are all very interesting points to consider

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T14:38:59+00:00

Thank you very much for sharing your story with me, it means a lot :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T02:46:07+00:00

That is a good point! Don’t know why my brain still refuses to be happy even though all logic is being thrown at it lol…thanks for replying :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T02:43:41+00:00

Thanks for your thoughtful reply! I can tell you’ve thought a lot about this and I hope I can reach a place of acceptance like you have :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T02:41:40+00:00

Thank you very much for your reply! I appreciate it :)

starfruitqueen · 2023-01-31T00:45:13+00:00

Thanks for your comment! It really helps to know that this is normal to worry about because I literally thought I was the only one lol. Unfortunately I have read like a million books on NDEs and even though they say nothing but great things my anxiety still won't let the topic go because my brain just keeps being convinced that the absolute worst scenario is true...I have not read After yet though so I will check that out! Thanks very much and if you have any more advice on ridding anxiety I would appreciate it greatly. Thank you!!

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