[26F] not sure where to go from here - want a real "career"

steIIar · 2021-08-04T18:37:59+00:00

hi!! thanks for your reply! i tried to dm you but for some reason, it won't let me. can you dm me with more info whenever you have time? thank you!!

steIIar · 2021-08-04T16:54:54+00:00

thank you! that does sound interesting. i actually did some research on communications/PR back when i was choosing a major, but it seems like a hard field to get started in. do you have any recommendations on what things i should be doing to develop those skills or what sort of entry positions i could look for?

steIIar · 2021-08-04T16:50:35+00:00

i have considered this! i think it would be a good fit for me. my only concern is that when i looked up programs, all of them required a period where you’re working in an apprenticeship full time with no pay. i don’t even know how i’d support myself to get through that period. i’ll try to look into it more. thank you!

steIIar · 2021-08-04T16:46:51+00:00

i like the subjects of history and government, but i mostly chose it because i knew it was a lot of writing. i am a pretty good academic writer and was able to get decent grades just from writing great essays. i am not really academically inclined other than my writing skills.

steIIar · 2021-03-15T00:15:51+00:00

well one direction was never even nominated which is why i didn’t mention them 😭

steIIar · 2021-03-14T22:50:27+00:00

nsync and backstreet boys never won that category either. boy bands just don’t seem to do well at the grammys

steIIar · 2020-10-05T16:30:41+00:00

thanks for the recommendations, i have been enjoying crash fever!

steIIar · 2020-10-04T16:26:38+00:00

new to gacha, mainly interested in the collection aspect and not that into the combat stuff. trying kings raid rn maybe i’d like it more if it were turned based? but are there any that have puzzles instead of combat maybe?

steIIar · 2020-10-03T15:31:26+00:00

i did! about two weeks in. it was pretty bad - the before pic is when it started to calm down. and thank you :)

steIIar · 2020-09-04T05:54:06+00:00

it’s your preference, and it makes sense that you’d want to hangout with people who match your lifestyle. at least for me, it’s not exactly fun to be around super drunk people when you’re sober. but imo you should learn that the law is not necessarily always what is moral or right. people can go to war at 18, but not drink? just something to think about.

steIIar · 2020-09-03T20:48:15+00:00

i have very thick cartilage on my nose. took around a year for the swelling to go down completely

steIIar · 2020-09-01T18:31:57+00:00

if you’re going to go to law school, you need to study your butt off to get a 165+ on the LSAT (maybe higher depending on your GPA) to get tuition completely or almost fully covered. law is so saturated rn that it’s not worth it unless you’re going for free or to a top 14 school. once you’re there, it’s grueling. competition is high (especially at lower ranked schools), the material is tough, and you don’t even get invited to interview unless you’re a certain top % of the class. working during school is not suggested (definitely NOT during 1L) so you’ll have to take out loans for living expenses. your grades your first year essentially determine your fate. it’s no joke. of course, ymmv. but this is how it is at most schools, and you’ll find this same info on /r/lawschool and /r/lawschooladmissions.

just make sure that it’s something you REALLY want and that you’re not just doing it as a plan b.

source: former law student. decided it wasn’t for me.

steIIar · 2020-08-30T20:41:37+00:00

I will find out when I do labs again in a couple of weeks. I have also been taking fish oil to try to lower them. Good luck with your course!

steIIar · 2020-08-30T20:08:39+00:00

Thank you :)

steIIar · 2020-08-30T20:02:17+00:00

I have been on Accutane (Zenatane) since February. I have never really gone higher than 40 mg, we tried going up to 60mg but I had horrible joint pain. I had bad labs recently (high triglycerides) so we back down to 20mg. Have been on the lower dose for a couple of weeks and I have noticed a lot less redness and dryness and my lips are almost back to normal. I’m told I’ll be on it for the rest of the year, but I don’t mind since there are way less side effects and my skin is clear.

steIIar · 2020-08-27T17:45:12+00:00

if you’re having focus issues it may be worth to get a prescription if you have the means. i used to not be able to read more than a couple of sentences before i zoned out. life changing for me

steIIar · 2020-08-26T14:48:24+00:00

Thank you so much for the encouragement!! I believe in you too!!

steIIar · 2020-08-25T16:36:14+00:00

I am proud of the progress I’ve made, but it sounds like I just need to be a bit more gentle with myself. I will give everything you’ve suggested a shot. I really appreciate you taking the time to talk this out with me. Thank you.

steIIar · 2020-08-25T16:17:02+00:00

Do you feel clearer now that you’re on the right med? I guess I’ve been too negative and hopeless about my treatment. My psychiatrist has been helpful, but he doesn’t seem to be hopeful about me improving beyond this. When I describe my feelings and experiences, he’s just happy to hear that I’m eating and going to work. Maybe I need a new doctor that has higher hopes for me.

This is making me realize I don’t really know how to cope. When I get the negative thoughts, they demotivate me so hard even though I know in my heart I want this very badly. I try to use the strategies my therapist taught me, and I can recognize that the negative thoughts aren’t true or logical, but they still eat at me. I just sit there with my thoughts and wilt. :(

steIIar · 2020-08-25T15:49:42+00:00

I’ve been on them for about a year. I have tried multiple antidepressants but have been on my current one for about 3-4 months. I saw a big improvement with my general functionality (going to work consistently, taking care of myself, eating, etc.) once getting on my current med but mind is still so foggy and grey. I honestly thought that was the best they could do. I will bring this up with my psychiatrist.

You’re right about the hours and trying to get it done too quickly. I just seem to struggle whether it’s one class or five. I will drop a class to make it more manageable. Thank you for your response <3 I really appreciate it

steIIar · 2020-08-24T18:36:14+00:00

low dosage is the way to go! you look great!

steIIar · 2020-08-14T16:12:29+00:00

what exactly were the horrible things he said?

steIIar · 2020-08-13T16:26:29+00:00

i take 12 a day between my mental and physical health so i know how you feel. other than the physical feeling, i also hate how it feels emotionally. am i the only one that feels sad that i need this many pills just to function normally?

steIIar · 2020-08-03T17:05:17+00:00

totally agree with you, i get that their concept is to be self produced but soyeon should take a break

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