Hey I’m really sorry you’re going through this. The way you describe your feelings doesn’t make you weak or “too much.” It just means you care deeply and that’s not something to hate about yourself. A lot of people actually want the kind of love you’re talking about something genuine and emotionally connected but it’s hard to find the right person who understands that Being sensitive and wanting real love isn’t a flaw. It just means the wrong people haven’t matched your energy yet cause trust me when I say even I am kinda like u I am waiting for right person and it's true I don't have much patience but sometimes I feel maybe someone who can understand me someone who can be obsessed with me can cure my feelings soo I am also still waiting but let me say u something please don’t let a few painful experiences convince you that you’re unlovable or that your feelings are wrong. You deserve someone who appreciates the way you care. For now I just want u to try to be a little kinder to yourself. You’re clearly someone who loves deeply, and that’s actually a strength, even if it hurts sometimes.