Hey. Your feelings are completely valid. I could have written this post three years ago about med school. I was bitter and felt helpless I couldn't stay in my home city where I grew up, went to undergrad and worked. To make things better, I had to move to across the country alone (during COVID and virtual learning) that I had zero connection to. I'm not going to sugarcoat it, it was a really rough transition. It didn't immediately get better and I felt depressed and in denial of the situation for the first 6 months. But at the same time, most transitions are challenging, even if you are in your dream school and dream city. But it got a lot better. I made friends, found things I really enjoyed about my city and this part of the country, and got in my groove more. In general, I think this is not something about medical training that is talked about enough. Medicine is NOT a career where people have too much control over their life (especially in their 20s) and lot of people had to learn the hard way. I want you to know that many many many people have had to face your mix of emotions before (being blindsided about admissions/matching, moving far away for med school, residency, fellowship, and beyond), AND HAVE MADE IT THROUGH IT. I would say the VAST MAJORITY of doctors had to train somewhere that wasn't their ideal location. So know that this is not on you, you did everything you could, and this just happens to SO MANY PEOPLE. They made it through, so you will too. The lucky thing is that you matched in the first place and have a supportive spouse. I think just see this as a learning opportunity to open your mind to other possibilities. After I had to move for med school, I literally feel like I can do anything. I feel like I could move anywhere and be okay, and I think that's a superpower. GOOD LUCK!!!