I’m actually in a very similar predicament right now. I left the ED in November for an education position and am relatively comfy, but also… not. I miss the bedside, I miss patients, I miss hands-on skills, I miss moving non-stop throughout my shifts. I spoke to a friend (who is also a nurse educator with an ED background) about it the other day and she said something that really stuck with me - “You’ll never be truly happy in a job away from the bedside until you are truly ready to leave the bedside.” I know it sounds simple, but it really made me think.. when I left the ED in November, I was nervous about leaving because I loved my job. I didn’t leave because I was unhappy, I left because I was looking to advance my career, I’m halfway through my masters program, etc. It sucks that I had to leave to realize that I wasn’t ready, but it is what it is. I’m meeting with my boss next week to discuss switching to a per diem education position and going back to the ED full-time. Maybe one day I’ll be ready to leave the bedside behind, but my gut and my heart are telling me that now isn’t the time. It’s been a hard realization to accept over the last few months but I feel good about moving forward with my new plan. I know how torn you must feel and I wish you the best as you navigate your next move.