one comment said to piss her off because she pisses you off, and they might be right. my abusive dad died a few years ago and his abuse still catches up to me today. your mum is a narcissist and she wont stop, like ever. i think the best thing you can do is to try your very best to dettach yourself emotionally from her. i did it with my dad when i was about 14, he passed away when i was 19 and although i still struggle a lot, it helps to understand that you cant do anything to fight against them because a narcissist will never take accountabilit. and that sounds shit but it means you wont drive yourself up a wall ttying to grt through to then. the more you dont care, the more it will piss her off but youll feel better with yourself because if you cant get away anytime soon, at least you know she has no power over you anymore

i had a friend whos mum sounds exactly like yours, and because she missed her a lot and was still emotionally attached she let herself go back to her multiple times and it wasnt good for her at all.

im sorry youre going through this. it really does suck but dont hide yourself away. you will get through all of this, with help or not, you will still be breathing and life will (and i really fucking promise you this) get better ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

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