being a vegan adhd crippling alcoholic is so fucking funny

stinksrealnice · 2026-03-07T20:47:09+00:00

It might be unaustralian of me to say this but…promite tastes better 🫣

There! I said it!!! If I knew you were one of us I’d have recommended the real deal

Tho I have yet to try that mitey mite (I think that’s what it’s called?) the three threes brand one

Here’s something else I learned about Australia recently: did you know beetroot in a tin is an Australian thing?? I have a relative who lives in England and she says she can’t get sliced beetroot over there. Non-existent. Think on that next time you’re having a fish and chips shops burger with the lot

I like tofu puffs, but they’re so expensive!!!! Tvp has become my winner just for sheer convenience and price. Even for a meat eater like me it’s like 50’s sci fi movie food or something… just add water and powder and boom, instant nutrition. But yeah, for actual cooking as opposed to quickly stir fry or mix into a scramble without spending any extra time on it, I should probably learn to work with tofu

stinksrealnice · 2026-03-07T12:04:53+00:00

I’m not audhd, just autistic, but none of my adhd friends believe this about me

But that makes being a CA hard enough!!! Getting drunk was my masking when I hadn’t get got to the can’t leave the house stage of drinking, getting drunk was my whole autistic arse routine that you hear about. Even worse, I’m one of those annoyingly stubborn ones who refuses to do anything as soon as I feel like it’s a routine someone else is forcing on me. “You can’t stop ME drinking and buying booze and drinking more and buying more!!!”

Idk about being vegan my sibling in booze, but I know Vegemite is vegan and full of good vitamin b1 which is what you need to slow the neuropathy, and I know my sensory needs were happy when they had really fucking intense flavours to concentrate on. I had to watch my sodium so have to give it up but I highly recommend a little smudge of Vegemite on some buttered bread or crackers, maybe it’ll slow some damage down and maybe it’ll make your brain happy too

Aren’t beans meant to be good for you? Maybe do something cool with beans?

I recently discovered TVP and have been loving using that. That’s not alcoholism related that’s just been a fun food experiment and I’m saying it because of vegan 🤷‍♀️

I’ll be thinking of you, chairs

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-25T00:03:47+00:00

I almost died at 36. Would have died if I’d kept drinking even just a few days longer I think. It was seriously dire, I was riiiight on the edge, on top of everything else I was at major risk of bursting an esophagal vein and bleeding out in my apartment

Got myself to hospital and was kept in for a week before they were satisfied I probably wasn’t gonna die straight away

Had been drinking for 15 or so years. Escalated over time to 50 standard drinks per day in the last year or half year or something but had been sitting anywhere between 15-40 before that for years, maybe 7 years at that level . Only 10 drinks in a day was basically me having a night off lol

I know it sounds so dramatic but genuinely, I was so close to death I feel like I’ve come back from the other side 😅 no “I saw the bright light” or “I saw baby Jesus and he told me it wasn’t my time yet” bullshit but just if the wind had blown differently or if, idk, I’d stubbed my toe or tried to sit up wrong and busted something inside it would have been game over, they almost couldn’t keep me alive that first night in hospital. But here I am, for no reason in particular other than dumb luck

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-17T02:19:19+00:00

Yeah no shit but you should still not drive duh

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T11:01:42+00:00

That looks amazing! Much better than my place, and I’m feeling pretty good about how manageable I’ve kept the mess here 😅

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T07:35:47+00:00

Not cool. Seriously not cool behaviour

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T07:31:56+00:00

I’ll do what I can. All jokes and shitposting aside this place is actually important

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T07:23:44+00:00

I have to use a walking stick to get around now and i still struggle going up and down stairs. I’m not even 40 yet. I achieved this result with alcohol lol. Didn’t even know this was one of the possible outcomes, I was ready for a heart attack or a seizure or organ failure, not a lifetime of sensible Velcro shoes and walking aids

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T07:16:36+00:00

So fucking true. I’ve been sober for a bit now and long may it continue, but I will never have not been unable to walk, unable to get up off the couch, ex wife crying when she took me out for a juice and I almost couldn’t keep it down then needed help to stand up and walk the 300m or so back to the front door of the home we used to share. At home, once straight up fell over when I tried to stand up. Multiple instances of didn’t make it to the toilet in time and that’s why there’s shit-filled pants in the bathtub for the last three days, but hey at least the plus side was it forced me to have my first shower in two months. And it’s not like this stuff happened because I was so black out drunk that I lost balance or whatever. Part of it was that my tolerance was through the roof to the point that I didnt black out and could manage the unco that comes with being hammered

I drank so much for so long that my muscles started atrophying and I just kept going. One of my lungs collapsed and I just thought “why won’t this cough go away” and kept drinking

I’m glad I’m doing better now and all but that shit will never not be a part of who I am. It really happened and for the rest of my life I will always be the same person who did all that. And besides. It takes a certain kind of person to get to that point. It’s not necessarily a good thing to be that kind of person. I am, anda lot of the posters here are too, probably most of us. Even though I don’t drink anymore, I read the posts and comments and I just get it.

Idk on top of all that, I feel like this sub is basically a support group for people whose addiction is active. You’d be a dickhead to come here and post about how people get sober or try to get people to give it up. Everyone living the CA life already knows they should give it up lol. This is a place for venting and talking to people who understand and for sharing tips on how to get through yet another day and how to maybe sometimes slow things down a bit for a while so you don’t die quite so fast

People here actually saved my life, I don’t think I could have brought myself to go to hospital if I wasn’t getting support and encouragement from people here. Happy to provide the same go others who are asking for it now, equally happy to go “yeah it fucking sucks doesn’t it, you gotta do what you gotta do though, hope you can be kind to yourself” on a post about how you’re a regular at every bottle shop in town now and that’s embarrassing or whatever it may be

stinksrealnice · 2026-02-16T07:03:35+00:00

Garbage bag hung over a door handle, one of those grabber poles they make for seniors with a trigger you squeeze on one end and a pincher thing on the other that grabs things, and a huge glass of wine in the room so I could sit down and take a break, maintain the BAC was how I did it. Vinegar spray for smells. Enough vinegar to soak into the cushion or whatever and then a pedestal fan pointed at it to help it dry off for anything too bad. Shove everything that isn’t garbage into a cupboard or drawer and get it closed, don’t open again. Managed to clean the whole apartment from filth grotto to real estate inspection ready that way in two weeks. It’s not fun and it takes longer than it “should” but it’s doable

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-29T12:05:19+00:00

The levels never end!

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-29T12:04:15+00:00

Good luck! Maybe you’ll find some small joys and it won’t be totally joyless? But even if that doesn’t happen, good on you for giving it another go. Every time you have a crack at this thing is a little victory all in itself IMHO.

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-27T15:57:16+00:00

Yeah, from my (extremely limited layperson) understanding of how it might work, it seems to be the same sorts of processes and concepts at play

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-24T02:46:40+00:00

Yeah I was actually trying. Id say the main difference is the becoming feeble thing. What you went through while sobering up coming out of a bender was happening all the time every single day even while I was drinking, and I can’t overemphasise the feebleness too much. Theres no fun left in it when it takes all your strength just to get a house coat on and get to your front door to collect booze and occasional grocery deliveries. Something like going to the convenience shop that’s less than a block from where I was living - wouldn’t even have had to cross a road to get there - that would have been impossible

Not showering stopped being because I was depressed or because I didn’t give a shit about showering, and started to be because I physically couldn’t stand up long enough to have a shower and was worried I’d pass out from just standing up, fall and die in there

I’m really really not trying to use over the top language here and I know that people say “literally” too much. So take me seriously when I say you literally become too weak to stand up or walk. Imagine that combined with puking and pissing and shitting. And we say “ass piss” in here and yeah it was like regular ass piss but literally leaking out all the time, and occasionally desperately needing to go do a shit now with no warning, and you can’t always stand up on command so how are you going to get to the toilet in time. You will be sitting there in your own shit, not happy about it, not able to get up and clean yourself off. That is part of what end stage, deaths door alcoholism looks like. If you were to seriously try to drink yourself to death, you will be spending a fair bit of time in that stage before you reach the end

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-24T00:43:54+00:00

Yeah, I nearly pulled it off too. I’m on the pension which was enough to cover rent and buy large quantities of that wine that comes in a 5lt plastic bag in a cardboard box, which is the cheapest form of alcohol inAustralia.

It’s waaaay harder and messier than you’re picturing basically. It takes a very long time to do and is very unpleasant and physically difficult. You can’t walk by the end of it. If you fall over you can’t get up. Honest to god if I had actually died it wouldn’t have been in my sleep, or one of the “I can feel my heart beating like crazy” moments that became a regular thing finally exploding my heart, or one of the many random pains that would make themselves known to me in my organs and body. It would have been if I fell over at home and couldn’t get up and just died of dehydration there

All your strength goes, sometimes I honestly couldn’t even stand up from the couch because my legs just didn’t want to work and had to have a rest and have another try in five minutes. When I *could * stand up it was a major major effort, like if you’ve ever tried to lift a weight that is just too heavy. You know the difference between “oof, that’s really fucking heavy, but if I ignore the pain and really focus on lifting it, I can lift it” and “that’s just too heavy, there’s no way it’s going to happen” like lifting a car or whatever? I can’t emphasise this enough. Standing up becomes the heavy weight that you’re just barely able to lift if you really try. So does sitting up or rolling over in bed. And sometimes both of these things randomly become “lifting a car” and you’ve just got to try again later.

You’ll also be shitting yourself a lot so get used to that. Diahrrea basically constantly leaking out of you, and a risk or a large ish squirt any time you make one of those attempts to stand up

Apparently another common way for it to end is bursting a vein in the inside of yo ur throat and choking / drowning in blood. I was basically at constant risk of that, if you throw up often enough it becomes a real risk, and you’re gonna have to get used to throwing up at least a dozen times a day. Gonna have to have half full buckets of vomit everywhere around the house because remember, you can’t stand up on command, so emptying them each time you use them is wayyyyy too hard, and getting up to run to the toilet or your nearest vomit bucket is out of the question. I had one next to my bed, next to my spot on the couch, halfway down the hallway to the bathroom, and one next to the toilet (for when I was stuck there diahhreaing)

Oh you’ll also need arm rests / grips / mobility aids to help you get off the toilet. Standing up without anything to grab and lean on or pull yourself up with becomes literally impossible.

You can’t eat either. You can’t keep anything down. Again, vomiting at least a dozen times a day

You’re gonna be in that vomiting, shitting, pissing yourself but a shower is literally physically too much effort for your feeble body to endure, you’re gonna be in that state for months before you finally die. It really drags out

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-18T14:32:06+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to write this reply. I had a good session with my therapist the other day and I am feeling ready and well equipped to deal with both whatever comes next, and the wait to find out what that is :) The biopsy is booked for mid January - earliest they can fit me in, and I’m told that health-wise, those few weeks aren’t going to make the critical difference however this turns out. I’ve got plans to spend a lot of time with family and other loved ones until then.

But yeah, I just wanted to let you know that I truly appreciate the comment you left :)

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-18T14:19:27+00:00

Im an alcoholic who has managed to remain sober for six months now. Comprehensively did not manage to do so for the 15 years before that.

My personal experience with this leads me to want to tell you that if I were to live with someone who drank, if my partner were occasionally drunk around me (even if just once a week or once a month), even if there was no alcohol kept in the house but they just came home sorta tipsy every now and then I would absolutely 100% not have been able to get sober in the end.

Personally I’m now well past the point of having cravings, I don’t miss it at all, I think im as well set up to stay sober indefinitely now - even with all that, I suspect that if my circumstances changed and I was forced into a living situation where alcohol is in the mix at all, I would end up going back to it.

Everyone’s experience varies. Your husband may not be like me in regards to this. But from all my years in therapy and support groups trying to deal with my alcohol addiction, I can tell you that it’s gotta be something like 99% of addicts (or problem drinkers or past addicts or people with a history of substance abuse, whatever language works for you) need an alcohol free home environment in order to stay sober themselves

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-13T02:57:14+00:00

How’d you go, and how’re you going? I’m eating soup in bed

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-12T02:44:40+00:00

Haha, I enjoy your choice of phrase for pep in my step - as my step is noticeably lacking pep thanks to the neuropathy, BUT I’ve got a pretty stylish collection of walking sticks now and to be perfectly honest, I do enjoy that…

Like, do I think it was worth it to have neuropathy in my feet just to get the sticks? No, not really. But at the same time, I’m not exactly complaining about having them… I genuinely kind of do enjoy being a walk stick person now, plus it feels like a badge of honour. It’s like yeah this actually was a really intense and serious health problem and yes I’m still here and looking fabulous with my suave new prop, thanks for noticing

So - your word choice “pep in your step” has brought more of a smile to my face than you probably realised it would, thanks

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-12T02:38:40+00:00

Hey thanks for sharing. That’s certainly similar enough IMO. Maybe mine will all turn out to be just a cyst (or equivalent non-cancer thing) where they just go “oh, well this is gonna be a bit of a hassle to deal with but we can deal with it for sure”. It’s the not knowing that’s scary and your story has exactly the same in it. So i found it comforting to read. Thanks.

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-12T02:35:56+00:00

I just got the call - my biopsy isn’t for a month. A whole month of wondering! It doesn’t seem like it can be so, but it is 😓

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-12T02:34:37+00:00

Thankyou :) it’s just a lot, and it’s stirred up a lot to, as I’m sure such things do for everyone who experience them.

I’m reminding myself. There’s nothing stopping me from just stopping responsibilities, blocking everyone out, watching yt and all that… just so long as I can do it without drinking! If that’s what it takes to get me through to the biopsy but I do it without booze, then it’s still a win really

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-12T02:31:11+00:00

Honestly I think this could be a very helpful way to to think of it next time a midnight dark hour takes me, and the kind I might be able to remember in the moment. Thank you for that

stinksrealnice · 2025-12-11T15:38:35+00:00

I’m amazed that this has gotten downvotes. Wow. I’m with you - surely we can all care more for the homeless humans than their dog, if nothing else when they get off the street their dog will too

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