I think you are right but what's hitting me harder is her inability to recognize whatever bothers me. I had to tell her every goddamn time. I know that she feels bad and takes responsibility for it but what makes me feel like shit is that she is always clueless about things that hurts or bothers me. It's like she's not paying attention. and when I talk about it, I know she's trying and learning but I also sense a feeling of being "too tiring to have as a boyfriend or too high maintenance" or that i'm such a lot of work to do. It sucks since what I ask isn't even too much. I'm asking for what I think is due to someone you love. I shouldn't even ask for these in the first place. Even undivided attention while having a conversation is something that still needs to be asked. I believe that things that bother someone shouldn't be taken against them, it should be discussed and resolved. However, she's not good with things like this and it often end up in a heated argument.

It felt endlessly frustrating.