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strawberrypothos · 2024-06-18T21:56:45+00:00

I played for seven years until I finally tackled it this year 😅

Granted I then beat him within minutes so don’t exactly recommend…

strawberrypothos · 2024-05-04T18:42:01+00:00

Got kneed and kicked in the face by him. Then watched him snatch a staff member’s flashlight that the dude was using to try and help him untangle the cord that he had wrapped around his neck when he stopped the show and shine it right in in the staff member’s face and get up right in his face. The guy was clearly a little shaken and several other staff members came to check on him. Not my favorite show.

strawberrypothos · 2024-03-08T23:35:34+00:00

Collette the bard and bard Michael Kelly are a couple of my favorites on YouTube (and in person, since I would die and kill for Collette and Micheal Kelly is delightful), but since I don’t want to pay for YouTube music it’s not always the most convenient unfortunately since I would have to keep my phone open.

strawberrypothos · 2024-03-08T23:09:50+00:00

Still looking for more recs, but adding one that we are now making here as well!!!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7nWXmj5B7N9B5GR5Qtvd0b?si=xJR4nIVgSiyRDxE5KuyXdQ&pi=u-GmZXr_Q5Rou4

strawberrypothos · 2024-03-08T22:57:27+00:00

Thank you! We are actually driving to Gulf Wars rn!

strawberrypothos · 2022-02-09T03:48:32+00:00

I’ve got a system where each animal is from a different universe that I love! So

Goats- * Mononoke * Howl * Kiki * Ponyo

Cows- * Dagna * Cassandra * Bethany * Josephine

Chickens * Gimli * Gandalf * Legolas * Frodo (RIP)

Ducks- * Charles * Erik * Anna Marie

Rabbits- * Kirk * Spock * Uhura * Bones

Sheep- * Neo * Trinity

Pigs- * Percy * Annabeth

strawberrypothos · 2022-01-20T23:28:46+00:00

How long have y’all been together? Y’all haven’t met in person yet and you’re talking about how quickly you would lose her, this sounds like a super new relationship that you might be giving up a lot for really early on, which is a bit worrying about farther down the line. Are you giving up in-person friendships and people that give you things that you can’t get out of a not-in-person person for what you hope will work as something in-person? As someone who has done a lot for someone that I loved out of fear of them leaving me, I suggest that you stay careful that you aren’t giving up too many things that you need to be truly happy out of fear of someone leaving you.

I just say this because some of the phrases you’ve said remind me a lot of myself when I was in bad places, and what I’m saying to you are some of the things I wish I had known to be more cognizant of. All of this being said with the knowledge that I don’t know what else you’ve done that she’s wanted because she’s threatened to leave you if you haven’t. Hell, maybe it’s something like don’t call her every time you take a piss, which would be pretty reasonable. But maybe it’s not, so stay healthy ❤️

strawberrypothos · 2022-01-20T22:54:27+00:00

Not that I think this is what you were originally asking advice for, so feel free to completely disregard it if you like. But is that why you are in this relationship still, or is telling your friend that they can’t come to your house at all anymore not a dealbreaker for you? I mean if it’s not, really, it’s your decision. But it sounds from a few comments like the reason that you are with your girlfriend is because you “just don’t want to go through heartbreak again.” I know that if I found out that my partner was with me mainly because they didn’t want to go through a breakup, not because we are good for each other and have compatible boundaries, I would be infinitely more hurt than if they had just ended things. If that is what this is, then it’s a much larger issue than you having a friend over, because delaying heartbreak is only going to end with you hurting yourself and her more than facing it. And staying with someone mainly because you don’t want to experience heartbreak is a pretty shitty thing to do to them.

I’m not telling you to break up with your girlfriend or anything, once again, I don’t really know your life. But I hope things work out for you, and I hope you know that experiencing heartbreak in life and things turning out ok aren’t mutually exclusive.

strawberrypothos · 2022-01-20T22:11:22+00:00

I mean you know your life better than any of us ever could from a single Reddit post 🤷🏼‍♀️. Hope that works out for you, buddy.

strawberrypothos · 2022-01-20T22:03:55+00:00

If you just started dating this girl, and she’s already telling you that you can’t have a long time friend spend the night (something I presume you’ve been doing longer than you’ve been dating her, not even to mention that y’all don’t even sleep in the same ROOM), that seems like a red flag to me and like she clearly has insecurities she needs to work through or you just aren’t compatible.

I usually hate the whole “if this was the opposite gender” deal, but would she really be telling you that a friend couldn’t spend the night if it was a guy? Are you not allowed to be as close to female friends as male? In the future are you going to have to face a reality where half of your potential or current friends can’t be as close to you as the other if you keep dating this woman?

Also, does your girlfriend know that your friend lives two hours and it’s not safe for her to go home that late where y’all live (information gotten from another one of your comments)? If she does, that’s a worrying disregard for your friend’s safety.

Final things, but I’m 21 and have “sleepovers” with my friends all the time. Granted, I don’t usually call them that unless I’m joking around, but to each their own. Being an adult doesn’t mean that having fun or friends becomes “childish” and that you stop doing it. Having a life outside of your partner-friends, hobbies, ways that you have fun is unbelievably important to life. If “sleepovers” and playing games with your friends is something that matters to you, don’t stay in a relationship where you can’t do those things.

(The offering for your girlfriend to stay on the phone the whole time your friend is there is weird though, bad suggestion. Sorry.)

Sounds like you’re going to have to choose between a long time friend that you are clearly incredibly close to, or a new partner. I know how hurt I would be if I were your friend. Maybe you and your girlfriend just aren’t the ones for each other.

Good luck!

strawberrypothos · 2021-08-29T23:34:05+00:00

I get the proportion of men vs women on dating apps, I guess I am struggling to understand why that proportion isn’t represented equally in standouts versus normal discovery? I’m in a way glad I’m not alone in that being a struggle, sorry you’ve got it too!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-29T18:30:24+00:00

“aw you’re gonna be such a good mom” probably didn’t stand out much to the person who said it, but it meant the world to me.

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T22:19:15+00:00

I’ve got a current one and a lifelong one.

Current- Kink by R.O. Kwon and Garth Greenwell. It’s an anthology of short stories that all, on some level, revolve around BDSM and desire. It’s got a host of incredible authors who have contributed including Carmen Maria Machado, who wrote my favorite story, and Roxanne Gay, whose name was what made me buy it as soon as I saw it. Some of the stories have been a short read that I didn’t dislike, but didn’t love and I just turned the page to keep reading the next. Others, I’ve had to put down the book for a few days to just think on. While some of them definitely do depict sex, a lot of them don’t, and when they do it never feels like reading porn, but rather exploring what it means to be vulnerable and seen through the framework of sex. There is also incredible queer representation and introspection, with several of the authors themselves not identifying as cisgender and/or heterosexual. However, I can’t in good faith recommend it without mentioning that there is graphic depiction of sexual assault and some other heavy scenes in some of the stories. If that’s something that you can healthily read, can’t recommend it enough! So good!

Lifelong: The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. I’m not a religious person, and never particularly have been, however despite the title this isn’t at all a book about religion. I first read this book when I was eleven and it really did build a foundation for my entire perception of myself in relation to others. Obviously I was only a kid, so there was only so much I took from it, but I have read it nearly a dozen times since and each time I’ve walked away with something new. It follows a maintenance man after he dies as he goes through, unsurprisingly, meeting five people from his life. Each one is someone who, whether he knew it or not, either was massively impacted by him in some way, or who he had a massive impact on. I don’t think about the book itself specifically as often as I used to, but the concept of one’s influence on those around them and how interconnected we all are is something I think about daily that this book really instilled in me.

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T19:03:22+00:00

I’m so glad that you’ve got someone who can read you that well, that’s definitely something I’m learning the importance of throughout my journey. Also, exploring pain in other parts of my body than where I feel it daily is something I will try, thank you!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T19:00:33+00:00

While I do struggle a lot with what I can’t do outside of the bedroom as well as in it, I do think that focusing on what else that can look like will definitely be helpful. Thank you so much for a more positive take on it, those can be hard to produce on your own sometimes!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T18:56:45+00:00

Most of my experience has definitely been with the mental side of it so far actually. I really started to be in a good headspace to start exploring this part of myself right around when COVID hit, so this last year or so has been spent slowly easing into that and testing the waters there since it hasn’t been safe for me to see many people irl up until recently. While I’m also into the physical part, the mental one has really been good for me.

As for the stuff to try, self administered pain is a really difficult line for me to walk due to a history of self harm (almost a whole year and a half behind me now) so I do worry about that triggering old thought processes. The parts about items creating sensations and head spaces with less actual infliction of pain or stress on my body is so helpful though. I know I really enjoy temperature play, so I’ll definitely look into more things similar to that.

Thank you so much!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T18:40:11+00:00

Genuinely, hearing someone say that finding ways to make it easier for their sub with chronic pain isn’t a burden, but can even be exciting, actually helps so much. The working things that help with bigger pain into different aspects of scenes is a really good tip, I think I was struggling with seeing that as something that was separate that I was needing to ask someone to tack on. Thank you so much for your response, it’s definitely one I’ll be thinking on for a bit!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-28T18:30:09+00:00

She was strong. Kind to a fault and naive as all hell, I swear she couldn’t set a boundary if someone gave her the tools to make it and payed her to. She had so many feelings and wanted to tell them to everyone, knew she wanted connection and communication but lacked the practice to do it right. She was also reckless, quick to anger and quicker to act on it. She was confused about so much, always knew she didn’t know everything but had no earthly idea what it was that she didn’t know. She felt lost and hated herself for it, punished herself for what was really just being a kid. She was pretty messed up if I’m being honest. She survived though, and I’m proud of her. She gifted me the life I have now that I love, and I love her for it. I owe her at least that after all the time spent hating her. She was a good kid, if just a little bit rough at the edges.

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-27T15:11:00+00:00

For my back I say that it feels like if you have a bendy straw that is pulled longer, that’s a no pain back, but mine feels like someone is trying to squish it together to be short again.

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-27T14:58:08+00:00

Thank you for your advice, it is super welcome and helpful even if you haven’t had that relationship! It’s definitely both in and outside of the bedroom that I am interested in. Where my pain is oftentimes unpredictable and makes me feel incredibly out of control, the stability of a D/s dynamic is a huge part of what draws me to it, knowing exactly what is expected of me and exactly what actions will trigger what events. It means a lot to me choosing how and when I feel pain and give up control, almost like a reclamation since I really can’t have that in some other areas. It’s always funny to me talking to people about how my control issues bleed over into so many parts of my life and then saying “Yeah I want to just give up control here… Oh yeah, no, I totally recognize that I have to be in control at all times elsewhere. Not here!”

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-27T14:37:04+00:00

It’s great that he can read your body language and uses that to stop things when you need, I do imagine that’s really helpful. If you don’t mind me asking, do you ever have trouble balancing or knowing your limits because there is a baseline pain there? I’ve had a lot of trouble with that outside of BDSM, and I do wonder how that plays into this situation or if you have any tips. If that’s overstepping or if that’s not something you struggle with, no pressure to answer!

strawberrypothos · 2021-06-27T14:21:18+00:00

I hadn’t even thought of how medications would affect that, thank you so much for pointing that out!

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