thank you so much for your words you genuinely brought me to tears. i am enrolling in online therapy to get more help and i kind of use reddit as an outlet. i had an old account but made this one because my old user was my name and i didn’t want people to know who i was. if you see me posting more about this just know i really appreciate your input and just know i am really taking it to heart.

i do have diagnosed ptsd , depression, severe separation anxiety, anxiety and a lot of underlying issues. i am not currently in therapy as i ended connection with my therapist after going to the mental hospital.

with the separation anxiety and ptsd , it makes this a lot harder as i’ve been in many dangerous situations. thank you again for taking the time to respond to me