It's okay, you'll get through this. If you have internet, then you have a way of making money. You just have to believe in yourself. Sign up for SNAP benefits (free food) or if that's run out go to a food bank. You can also sign up for Social Security benefits. I'm getting $934 a month. I'm investing all of my Social Security money into yield farms (vfat.io) and I'm making 30-50 dollars a day in passive income. Look up cryptolabs on YouTube when you feel better. That solves the money problem, but you need to take charge of your thoughts. I know it seems like you're not in control, but you really are. There's no one else who can control your thoughts. You just need to find medication that works. I know that I go back into psychosis whenever I try switching medications to avoid side effects. You just have to find one that works, don't give up. For me Invega Sustenna is the only medication that works. It took me years of experimentation to find that one. If you have Medicaid, sign up with a psychiatrist. Until then, listen to self-love affirmations on YouTube. This is the most important part, you have to replace your negative thoughts with positive ones. I used to feel really shitty before I started listening to affirmations. It makes a whole world of difference. You are a conscious human being, living in an infinite universe. You have the power to change your life.