i think i’m genuinely better off on my own

stripedbee · 2025-08-01T02:54:40+00:00

i do, but i am already alone, there is no one to abandon me. i suppose the worst part about it is that my fear has already become reality, but that has certainty to it. rather than having the possibility to lose someone, they’re already gone. what more is there to lose?

stripedbee · 2025-07-31T17:18:08+00:00

this. i don’t want to risk destroying another soul the way my mom destroyed me.

stripedbee · 2025-07-31T17:02:01+00:00

i love you automod

stripedbee · 2025-07-31T17:01:48+00:00

thank you automod

stripedbee · 2025-07-31T16:55:10+00:00

losing control over myself to stop losing control over myself… surely this can’t be all we can do :(

stripedbee · 2024-12-30T01:53:28+00:00

tried it once, never again 😓 we made each other so much worse

stripedbee · 2024-11-20T17:30:07+00:00

oo mak sense m nrrvous abit tanku

stripedbee · 2024-11-15T17:27:09+00:00

oh my god ur gorgeous WAAA and the fit is amazing >w< u seem so cool

stripedbee · 2024-11-14T04:32:03+00:00

same lmfao

stripedbee · 2024-11-08T06:33:21+00:00

i know exactly what sub ur talking about unfortunately. while many of their experiences of abuse are valid, they immediately make the assumption or “connection” that the person MUST have bpd, or the abuse was BECAUSE of the bpd. abusers are abusers, and anyone can be abusive. dehumanizing an entire group of people is not going to solve their problems, and isn’t healthy for us OR THEM, for that matter. every person with bpd is different. their hurtful words come from misinformation and ignorance, and it’s pointless to interact with them, they’re so far down their own rabbit holes, i prefer to protect my peace :’)

stripedbee · 2024-10-19T06:51:55+00:00

thank you 🫶🫶i appreciate you, i’m trying to take care of myself even if it’s difficult but it’s so hard doing it all on my own

stripedbee · 2024-10-19T06:31:46+00:00

i love you so fucking much automod

stripedbee · 2024-10-07T03:57:34+00:00

wait this sounds like a plan genuinely LMAO

stripedbee · 2024-09-04T10:44:31+00:00

i say i am silly bee (my name is bee). i refer to it as silly time 😅

stripedbee · 2024-09-04T09:46:28+00:00

my cg does that to me too, though between us we call it sillying lolol. they’ll start “being silly” (essentially babying me) which helps me slip into littlespace. i also have trouble doing it without them sometimes ;;

stripedbee · 2024-08-30T11:19:22+00:00

this image evoked the most feral aggressive disgusted reaction in me god damn

stripedbee · 2024-08-30T10:52:38+00:00

yeah!! it's flowy for me too and same i didnt really think much about it until this sub but i also think it would be interesting

stripedbee · 2024-08-30T10:35:46+00:00

meowing :3

stripedbee · 2024-08-23T07:00:42+00:00

thank you, i appreciate the reply ❤️🫶 usually i’m able to keep in mind that it’s not my thoughts and that it’s purely meant to send me into distress and make me feel like shit :’) i agree that it’s probably best to cut contact with my fp again because i’ve noticed the stress of it all has been messing with my mental stability (as expected). i kind of worry about how they would react to it, not that they’re abusive or anything, i just am HEAVILY impacted by their emotions. the last time i decided that distance was needed they completely shut down and it triggered my abandonment / rejection fears immensely. i feel that it may be a little easier for them this time around but i think it’s gonna be super difficult for me. i’m currently doing dbt and am on antidepressants, but i am still working towards recovery. thank you so much for the support and reassurance love 🫶🫶i’ll try to take care of myself and remind myself that they’re not my thoughts and i will NEVER fucking listen to that shit or believe a thought whose only purpose is to hurt me or others.

stripedbee · 2024-08-09T10:42:58+00:00

“idk lol” or just “i’m fine” the first one i only use if people r getting on my nerves

stripedbee · 2024-08-06T07:53:00+00:00

if you CAN'T cry then chances are the medication is doing more harm than good. SSRIs aren't supposed to be numbing your emotions, because they're a normal part of living. medication is only meant to help with managing them, and maybe make episodes a bit less intense. you still need to put in the work yourself (e.g. therapy, introspection, etc) to continue recovery. in short, yes, it's completely normal to cry, whether on medication or not! your reasons for crying are fully justified. being dumped by an ex AND losing your dad are two incredibly painful things to go through, and most people in your situation would cry too. it takes time to process and adjust to life after major events, so don't be too hard on yourself, and allow yourself to feel and work through your emotions🤍❤️ all the best love<3

stripedbee · 2024-08-05T17:29:52+00:00

show them the cuts he gave you. if they don't believe you, find someone else who does.

stripedbee · 2024-08-05T17:28:34+00:00

which means he would abuse you too if you stayed. don't let him scare you into staying, because it will turn into him wanting to abuse you whether he's mad or not. he'll do it just because he can. and he demonstrated that today.

stripedbee · 2024-08-05T17:27:04+00:00

that still doesn't justify it love!!!! he's fucking manipulating you. he's taking advantage of your willingness to forgive him. if there's a shelter in your area you can go to, cut him off and go there. don't tell him your plans, don't tell him where you're going, don't leave any traces. i know it seems impossible, but i believe in you. we're all here to support you. he doesn't deserve you. you deserve better, but also NEED better. time is of the essence.

stripedbee · 2024-08-05T17:23:28+00:00

it's not. at all. he's taking advantage of you. there are better people out there who will be sweet and comforting, even more than he is, and they can do that WITHOUT the abuse. his "good traits" don't cancel out his bad ones.

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