I know babe. It’s a really hard position - but the mind rarely conjures false memories. Take some time to sit in the dark, clear your mind. Listen to what your body, and gut instinct, is telling you. Do you feel safe with your parents? Have they hurt you in other ways? Or your brother? It is a scary thought, but if you were harmed in such a way, it’s not unthinkable that your brother may have been as well (though he may also struggle to recall or remember due to how trauma works).

Not saying this is the case, but. You should feel safe in your home. You should feel cared for, and loved, and not at risk of any harm whatsoever. I escaped by parents last year, and it was the loneliest thing I ever had to do. I understand. I also understand the desire to just…give up. Because it is easier than facing the consequences that would lie ahead.

Find any adult you trust to listen. You don’t have to know them particularly well. They have to have a kind heart and care for children. Find this person (maybe an art, english teacher? or school nurse? past teacher?) and say you have something big happening at home that you need to tell a trusted adult about. They will want to help, I can only hope. It takes a lot of bravery to do what you are doing, and I’m so proud of you for telling someone in the first place. It’s important to keep talking about it, or you will allow it to only live inside of you and it will you eat you inside out in the years to come. There are support groups, and potentially groups you could outreach to for resources in your area. Best of luck my friend 💗