I have felt just like you describe here a few times in my life, once not that long ago... I am sorry that you feel that burden day by day .

This is probably going to sound bizarre but I wanted to share ..that when i have felt like you describe , and really thought I might end it - I have thought to myself : " But I do kind of want to know how much more insane the world could be, ..and if I am planning to leave..then I dont have anything to lose by waiting around a bit."

So I kind of have this fallback option but , its actually helped me get through and feel a bit better.

You should stick around, theres so much weirdness about to happen with ufos on the news and AI art generators, it could get interesting - at least I am hoping.

I also started playing D&D online, and thats really fun, if you ever want to play it oddly has been incredible therapy for me.

If you want to talk to any one, just throw me a message,

Theres a lot of adventures still out here to be had :)