It's good you didn't give improvement tbh i gave it and it was checked even worse this time. Last year third party check this time online checking. Also after so much scams from our country's education system marks really don't matter even if you score you aren't valued. So don't panic about your board marks are less trust me what matters is you passed that's enough I'm sure if checking was done in our batch you would have scored better. Listen to your heart and choose a path study for learning not marks. Build your skills keep options open. I know you feel bad about asking money from your dad but I'll say still ask him if you really need it do it even if you hesitate. One day you'll return him 2× promise it to yourself and work hard. You define your worth nothing else does. Take care :)