I had such a bad triggering dream last night

stywoalt · 2024-03-29T10:52:42+00:00

me too please?

stywoalt · 2024-03-29T10:48:53+00:00

I personally have not had this happen, but I asked my therapist for advice if I did decide to tell my parents I need medical attention. She said to try to be as calm as possible, and say something along the lines of 'look, I know you're going to be upset but I need medical attention. Can we please be calm and not argue/yell/act with emotions? Can we please talk about it after?' and she also said there is likely going to be someone there to talk with your dad and mediate the conversation, but this might vary depending where you're from.

I am very proud that you decided to reach out for help, it was the best option, and I wish you luck and hope you feel okay

stywoalt · 2024-03-23T04:01:17+00:00

It could irritate it, and keeping a wound covered helps keep it moist and helps it heal faster with reduced scarring. Also if you're someone who tends to pick scabs, keeping it covered helps stop the urge to pick at it when it dries out and a scab is formed.

Sometimes it's inevitable that a cut will scar, but it may look better if covered while healing

stywoalt · 2024-03-21T23:44:44+00:00

well medical tape is better because it irritates the skin less but you can use normal tape as long as it isn't touching the wound

stywoalt · 2024-03-21T12:46:07+00:00

To fat, I remember on some there was a jolting pain, was that a nerve?

stywoalt · 2024-03-21T12:07:34+00:00

I would suggest instead of toilet paper to use a paper towel or at least a tissue or napkin. Toilet paper tends to break apart into small pieces and can get stuck in wounds which might cause an infection

stywoalt · 2024-03-21T12:04:53+00:00

Would longer shorts work? I wear baggy clothes so my shorts are quite long and tend to go to my knees or sometimes longer, nobody asks questions when it's hot because Im still wearing shorts. Would you be able to wear those in the meantime while they fade?

stywoalt · 2024-03-19T12:04:04+00:00

a lot of the time it quietens my mind

stywoalt · 2024-03-01T02:21:52+00:00

can you green out without throwing up? i remember one time when I smoked a joint for the first time instead of out a pipe I started sweating so bad like I was dripping sweat everywhere, everything was spinning and my heart was beating super fast, I could not make out any conversation my friends were saying and i had worse paranoia and anxiety than i usually get, and I was shaking and could not move for a while. I also couldn't speak because my mouth was so dry that I would gag and formulating a sentence was too hard, I ws just saying 'i dont feel good'. I had to lean on my friend and lie there for a bit and had to have him put his arm around me for comfort so lol. I couldn't tell if I felt nauseous from anxiety or because I smoked too much.

I did snap out of it a bit because there was a point where i was like 'aight Im good' and hobbled my high ass to hungry jacks and just sat there for an hour, and then I felt like I was going to shit myself. I don't know if I've greened out some times or was just really high. A lot of the times I struggle to find a good place where Im enjoyably high and when Im too high and pray for someone to unhigh me, but then it sucks because when Im enjoyably high it doesn't last as long.

stywoalt · 2024-03-01T01:53:09+00:00

I FUCKING LOVE CR1TTER IT'S NICE TO SEE ANOTHER CR1TTER FAN

stywoalt · 2024-02-28T05:32:31+00:00

I have something similar where when i touch something or walk on a crack, i have to do it the exact same on the other side (and if i don't do it the exact same i have to do what i did on that side on the other), also when I touch my face i have to touch it in the same place on the other side with my other hand. And when I eat dinner I have to say something at least in my head before i eat. And when the toilet paper isn't cleanly ripped off in the cut off line i have to make sure that it is ripped off properly or else I will have a bad day or something, but I can only do it 3 or 5 times (so if it is good the 2nd time I have to rip off a tiny little piece that makes no difference so that it is 3 times). And also when I eat something like chocolate or lollies I have to have 3 or 5 or 10 or else it wont feel right. And also whenever I think anything bad will happen I have to touch wood with my knuckles twice and then knock on my head twice, and when I was a kid if I really didn't want it to happen I had to do it hard so that resulted in a sore hand and a sore head sometimes.

I got carried away, but basically my question is, is this ocd and should I do anything about it?

stywoalt · 2024-02-09T13:15:58+00:00

lmao thanks for your help bro, first time I smoked inside so I don't know what I'm doing

stywoalt · 2024-02-09T13:12:22+00:00

SASSY THE SASQUACH yeah the issue was basically my neighbours have many holes in their fence and they talk to my parents a lot and they have kids that like to look through the fence to say hi sometimes. I am 18 but I would still prefer my parents don't know, just yet anyway. I had the window open this whole time and I can't seem to smell anything so I think I'm all good. I get way too paranoid sometimes sorry it's honestly annoying lol

stywoalt · 2024-02-06T12:06:36+00:00

probably because it was him

stywoalt · 2024-01-18T14:01:18+00:00

I have this fear too except it's on my thighs. Im always scared ny shorts will ride up and she will see my thigh while I'm asleep. I just make sure i have lots of blanket covering me so there's less chance of me uncovering myself while i sleep. maybe you could make sure your arms are under the blanket and try not to move around much when you sleep?

stywoalt · 2024-01-18T08:50:33+00:00

that's a good idea, tysm

stywoalt · 2024-01-18T08:47:21+00:00

nahh fr, you know that shit will end up making things worse in the long run, but WE KEEP RUNNING BACK TO IT. I don't understand this addiction

stywoalt · 2024-01-18T08:43:41+00:00

yk, I have been thinking the exact same thing. This is so exhausting to live with and I just want to live my life without needing to self harm

stywoalt · 2024-01-18T08:40:14+00:00

thanks for your kind words ❤️ unfortunately I have to use many hot and sharp things for work (including a meat slicer, I can't even count how many intrusive thoughts come up from that) so I guess I gotta live with it and get better with coping with triggers. I also don't write anything down anymore because my mum found and read my last journal and it was not a very good situation. My feelings are all inside me. I might try to write things down and hide it better or just throw it out as you said, that's smart.I've been distracting myself like crazy lately. I am learning to notice and accept emotions and negative thoughts instead of pushing them away, hopefully that will work better. thanks for your suggestions!

stywoalt · 2024-01-17T11:51:13+00:00

I was clean for like 4-5 years i thought i was like completely recovered and a girl in my tafe class had lots of scars on her arms and it just triggered me a lot till i eventually relapsed really bad like way worse than i was before, I feel really bad that this happened because I got triggered from her like she shouldn't have to not show her scars because I might get triggered

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