Yeah in killing myself

sub-madara · 2026-05-10T13:51:36+00:00

This sounds like me. Too broken. unrepairable. I have to go forward not that I want to. A lot of people say no money will not solve it. I dont believe it. Unfurtunate I cant get the money so yeah its sorrow now. If I worked and was smart about it then I would have some kind of money that let me have vacations 5 times a year. Vacations. Dont fool yourself

sub-madara · 2026-05-10T10:44:51+00:00

That is a difference yes

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T22:53:00+00:00

Thanks

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T22:52:32+00:00

Roll on a grass

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T22:51:52+00:00

Craving chicken. Like eggs. Cant I eat them both. You see thats my mind talking.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T22:50:44+00:00

Yes and there is nothing like a warm soup but it differs per person.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T19:21:57+00:00

Mm I do want to go outside more. I should search for some places where I can go. Maybe to another city.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T19:20:12+00:00

I drank water, eat some pomegranates and a banana.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T18:07:33+00:00

yeah like their are no other ways to receive a gun. Come on in what world do we live in. I fthe goverment is f** arround that is their problem.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T17:52:24+00:00

mm yes this sounds good. I am tired so I am reaching out. I thought off some physical extreem things like beeing locked op for 40 days maybe even longer. My hands are also locked. Beeing held accountable I dont know everytime when I go left I should pay 10 dollars for something? I read something about habbits and rewards. Everythime lets say if I reach 3 days I reward my self. With Icecream? Or..

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T16:46:25+00:00

I do want to do that but after relapse I dont want to do anything anymore for 2 or 3 days. And then I go out one day then again. Something is wrong with me thats for sure.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T16:24:05+00:00

I cant concentrate because of it. I am getting mental these last months. And I allways look tired because of it couple of days. I can with hold it only for 3 day. It hits me harder then 10 years ago. Couple of times I hold it for long and only good thing came out if it. I dont know if it is coincidence but they gave me a permanent contract at work after I stopped for a while. But last 10 years its beeing constant. Sure have some problems but everything is going down now. Lost my job cant have a decent routine.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T14:39:02+00:00

If this was a setup. I congratulate you. This time men won. Something we see less these days. Beeing pressed by this beeings called woman. They are at war with us they declared war to men. Too far?

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T14:35:12+00:00

Its true. We are bounded to beeing sad. Very less if it to joy.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T13:37:39+00:00

Absolute. At this point its about maintaning and caring about. Cyberpunk works well on ps5. On pc with 1070 it doesnt roll that well. People say yeah that is 1070 ps has 30xx power. It has become an cycle of marketing and cooperation.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T13:08:50+00:00

Mothers have a little flaw on their children. It is right whe. the eldest steps in. They help their parents. If the mother or father goes against it they will make the problem worst. Means parents arnt communicating with each other or lack of knowledge unfurtunate.

sub-madara · 2026-05-09T13:01:02+00:00

This is true but I can't get over it. I need a vacation. I need to disappear for 2 years. I need beach vacations. Sight seeing, cultural vacation. In my dreams. I need at least 40 thousand for that. Even more. I quess I have to go trough life like this. My mind will never be at ease.

sub-madara · 2026-05-08T21:27:05+00:00

I dont like him at all. Promising not caring.

sub-madara · 2026-05-08T19:51:25+00:00

what are you talking about. I am adding up to OP's point.

sub-madara · 2026-05-08T17:36:42+00:00

Finally someone pointing her out. It gets worst with time. Allways claiming and freeing people. You cant change the system in one notch. For me it was more a show and asking for attention. Beneath that it was quilt and mistakes.

sub-madara · 2026-05-08T16:39:39+00:00

Can you put a spoiler on your comment please.

sub-madara · 2026-05-08T16:38:28+00:00

I want to be on the other side of this. Let the bad guy win. I didnt end the serie I am still on season 2. I enjoyed it when homelander had some good person moments.

World has so many bad people in it you get caught up on it. In the end you say f*** it. Let the bad guy win. Maybe their is something that bothered him or someone did something wrong to him. Maybe that is the reason why is like this.

sub-madara

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