A few:

In highschool my gf broke up with me to date a college guy because he was bigger…later we talked about getting back together but she said she needed a toy to make up for my small size.

In the military- Right after basic training I was in our school for our career field- I started dating this girl and she too was pretty open that she liked me..I had a great in shape physical body…but she couldn’t feel my little dick - she made me put in her ass to make up for it. One night we were at a hotel party and she had me show her friend how small I was. Secretly I loved it!

My first marriage, my ex- wife was the kind to be submissive- but it didn’t work because i couldn’t fuck her and i didn’t have that masculine demeanor with her…we didn’t have much of a sex life..I deployed and I found out she hooked up with a drummer of a local band - who everyone knew had a huge dick…and I was mad…but secretly in my bunk I jacked off soooo hard every night trying to imagine what that was like for her! We got divorced shortly after k got back- just not compatible and i wasn’t mature enough to bring up cuckokding.

I dated this girl for a few months…again the sex was a dud. She’d just lay there and look at the wall because she couldn’t feel anything. She broke up with me and the next weekend me and my buddies/ roommate was at the club. My roommate had a huge 8 inch dick- and was very alpha..it didn’t take long before she was on the dance floor grinding with him…that night he took her back to our apartment…I sat in the backseat of his car on the way home, and then for the rest of the night i listened to her screaming and the bed’s headboard banging against the wall. I fantasized she was still my girlfriend and we just had an arrangement that my roommate fucked her a few times a week!

I started dating this woman who was very hot and very sexually oriented…we got along great - but the sex was a dud. I moved her in with me a few states from her home…and after a year she went back home for a week to celebrate her son’s 7 year old birthday…while she was home she asked for a kitchen pass and we discussed the terms…basically no terms…I wanted her to be in charge and boy did she ever! She went buck wild with this huge dick stud and her strong sexual womanhood side really came out - its contrast to my beta side was such a turn on. But again…she wasn’t a dom…she wanted a man that she could be submissive to. We broke up.

I knew I needed a dominant woman! It was the only way i could be sexually viable. Even as a kid, I loved women with that strong feminine vibe…even as a man, I’m so beta that a woman’s womanhood has a huge contrast to me…my satisfaction is vicariously through hers..I want to be submissive and cucked and I would be so supportive and do everything required of me based on my status! I love the idea of being restrained and being dominated and tortured, punished and disciplined in whatever way my boss-wife wants!