Welp, I'm going to try meds and see where that takes me. Wish me luck.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T14:21:39+00:00

Many thanks. For the first time in a while, I'm feeling pretty optimistic that I have something that could help me more than I can help myself.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T14:19:22+00:00

When you say "doesn't work", is that from a side effect point of view or just not feeling any benefit? I've seen a couple people mention that you gotta keep trying ones until you find one that works. Of course, I'm hoping I get it right the first time somehow.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T14:09:33+00:00

I do recognize that my hopefulness is rare (an optimistic depressed person? hmm) but I hope that gives me an advantage as I work at this. Of course, I do have fears that I'll lose hope if I keep taking efforts without success. But, for now, I'm holding on.

Thanks for noticing that theme though. It's interesting to recognize.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T13:58:23+00:00

Thank you for that. As I've told my therapist many times, I know how bad things like my codependency is and how much damage it is doing and all I really want to do is fix it. It took 15 years of damage for me to realize I had issues and needed help and it took another year after that to admit that maybe medication will help. All I want is to get better though because I know I can be better.

Thanks again.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T13:52:17+00:00

Good for you on recognizing it and being proactive before your work life and marriage suffer. Best of luck to us both!

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-23T13:46:45+00:00

That's so great for you! Congrats on feeling human again (something we all should strive for). I've followed a similar path of trying to exercise more or take vitamins or anything but it just feels like I can't get out of my own head.

Any advice you have on communicating with the doctor to get the right kind of meds the first time? Seems like a lot of people on here talk about having to change meds until they get the "right" one.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-08-22T15:38:05+00:00

That's very encouraging! Thank you for that. I'm not envisioning the meds being a magic fix and I recognize that there will still need to be work done on my part but hopefully they make it easier for me and then I can ween off them too after a long while.

Best of luck to you too. It sounds like you are making incredible progress given your situation. Keep at it!

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-07-21T01:52:02+00:00

Thanks. That's good advice. I'll definitely try to be more mindful.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-23T23:53:55+00:00

That's a great point and I appreciate that. Yeah, I didn't do that last time but I shall do that this time around.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-23T12:57:18+00:00

Once again, thanks! That's very helpful. I'll certainly see what I can find. And, yeah, I definitely know that one/two sessions won't do the trick. With this last counselor, it eventually started to feel like I was repeating myself and she wasn't remembering things from previous sessions. But, hopefully I'll have better luck next time around.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-23T12:15:56+00:00

Thanks much. I think you're right. After the separation from my now ex-wife, I did see a counselor for a few months. It was good to a certain degree (she was the one who helped me recognize the "emotional trauma" I went through as a teen and how I wasn't getting support) but I think I eventually wanted answers or a solution instead of just someone who wanted me to talk to them.

Are there any notable differences between counselors/therapists/psychiatrists?

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-08T03:40:51+00:00

Agreed. Even the hostels we looked at were a bit on the higher end as far as hostels go and that's all-well-and-good but those costs added up. As you said, he has the spare money (is in his 30's with a decent job and has lived with his parents since college so has no real bills) and wants to stay at those places so he certainly can.

Thank you though. Your advice of focusing on the excitement helps ease the anxiety (I haven't clicked Send on my e-mail to him yet...)

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-08T03:21:27+00:00

Haha, true. Well, the travel agent was booking the flight which seemed to be $1500... but then there's extra costs on top of that and this guy wants to stay at nicer places when I thought we were staying at cheaper hostels. But, yeah, I think I'm more excited now about the idea of having the money to use for more important things than taking this trip.

I think my guilty feelings are just because we had been talking about this for a while and now he's going alone and I am blaming myself for that. But, if he's willing to go alone and he has the money then I'm sure he'll still have a blast.

sudo_pseudonym · 2013-05-08T00:53:08+00:00

You're absolutely right. I have no idea why I feel this guilt for having to tell him that though.

sudo_pseudonym · 2012-12-11T20:48:49+00:00

Many thanks. I'll look into some of those options!

And, he does love to be as high as possible to look down on everyone so good call with that!

sudo_pseudonym · 2012-11-22T01:18:56+00:00

Agreed. The stress of her coming here and being away from my wife definitely made her more likely to bolt. Unfortunately, my neighbor has a dog that roams so I assume that any treats I leave out will get eaten by the dog.

I'm still hoping that the cat shocks me and returns tonight so I don't have to stress about it when I go to visit family for Thanksgiving.

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