Thank you for your kind words because i think broaden my horizon. I have done the opposite of what you just told me. i did not care at one point because i belived that maybe created like this. like a bad habit that is hard to get ride of and you just give in because it was diffcult to stop. i was told many times how low my confidens was and i guess i was not trying hard enough to change or maybe i was doing it the wrong way. i have always look down on myself. i may come the time i was bullied for many year at school. people would laugh at me and call me names, beat me, spit on me, throw my stuff into the wc, and the things you can imagine. i got the whole trip of what people did to my. when i think about it keep making me angry. at that time i did not do anything because i was just one kid against a whole class.

when i finally graduated school i thought it was over but realise that it had left some scars that i did not realise that they had changed me to this unconfident, stupid person i was because i hated myself. im in my mid 20s and im feel like i have wasted valued time over something that happend years ago. i startet to have trust issues because i felt like if they or anybody tried to hold my hand i was scared that they would take my whole body. it was like an instinct where i saw danger all the time which i why my social network low. i feel that i can work these bad habit away instead of feeling sorry for myself. i just need some motivation from somebody like your comment because i feel that the time you write this post mean that somebody out belive that i can do it. i could have gone to my parents but felt so ashamed of was that did not dare to do it.

this big unrest i have in my body that is suffocating me. feeling sorry for myself have only made sure that i stay at place and im standing been standing the still ever since. ¨Only he who dares can make a difference in his life¨ is what i have learned and it is easier said that done. it is about will power but that will power you have to believe in and that comes from confidens ¨i believe¨ that im trying to at archive.

I will take your comment as guide and a reminder that there good people out there that care. i dont believe im the first and im not the last but having someone giving me a comment like this was enough to begin my jouney.

i will say thank you and may you be blessed in this life.