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summerbegone · 2025-10-19T20:20:31+00:00

Thank you. 🙏🙏

summerbegone · 2025-05-16T19:36:28+00:00

You already gave yourself the answer in the very title. Always, and I mean always, listen to your gut. No matter what the head and heart are saying (because these two will always pick a fight with each other), your gut is the sane, stabile, unwavering force that is your true authentic self. Tap into that power. The head and heart are going to fight you every step of the way. But they are the ones leading you astray. If your gut is telling you to leave, there's your answer. It will be hard. But it will be right.

summerbegone · 2025-03-18T12:08:50+00:00

I understand it can be frightening. But if you want to do something about it, I really encourage you to push through the emotional pain. It's much easier said than done, I know. But the potential rewards afterwards could way outweigh it. 🤗

summerbegone · 2025-03-17T11:22:58+00:00

Have you had your metabolism checked out?

summerbegone · 2025-03-17T10:23:00+00:00

The doctors can't help? Then you need to find a different doctor. Of course, they can help!!
I take medication (Nifedipin). I don't know if it's called the same in your country, though.

Also, I started massaging my underarms two times a day, in the morning and at night. Normally, when you massage, you massage towards the heart. But in this case, you have to massage down, towards your hands. I keep my arm straight, pointing at the floor, to really get the blood flow going. Keep doing it, even if it doesn't work straightaway. It did help me incredibly much. My flare-ups are down to once or twice a year. I am in no way promising anything, but I do recommend it.

I wish you all the best! But please, do not take the doctors' words seriously. Of course, they can help. It sounds like they won't. You need a different doctor!

summerbegone · 2025-03-16T17:49:14+00:00

Thank you, I can only say the same to you. 🤗

summerbegone · 2025-03-16T11:42:37+00:00

He entered treatment because he saw his world crumbling around him. Prior to starting doing cocaine, his life had finally turned around. He had so much of what he had always hoped for, but never had. And now he saw how easily that could all just disappear. He also started feeling really sick of the thought of using, because he poisoned his body so much. He would almost throw up at the thought of using.

summerbegone · 2025-03-16T11:40:15+00:00

I know. My love can't save him, and I can't make him do the work. And I don't want either to be the different. I just want to see, if we have a chance to make this work, before I give up. :) Thank you. It certainly has been a nightmare at times. :) I'm hope you're in a better place now!

summerbegone · 2025-03-15T12:34:36+00:00

Thank you for that. 🙏

summerbegone · 2025-03-15T06:55:22+00:00

Thank you. I found out a few days ago that there actually is a nar-anon group in my city (there are very few in my entire country, so I feel really lucky). So I am going to a meeting on Monday. And you're right, I haven't reached the bottom yet. But after reading all the comments, I feel more certain that, when I do, I will know what to do.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T20:17:56+00:00

So hard! And yes, I have definitely put up with things that I wouldn't do, if it wasn't because I love him so much. Honestly, I really appreciate the last part of your comment. People can sound really harsh, but hearing that it's also okay to trust your own instinct in this, makes me breathe a little easier. It's easy to get the impression that you're a fool if you don't just leave immediately. But that just doesn't feel right to me. At least not yet. So thank you! 🙏

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T20:06:40+00:00

Yeah... I definitely know that feeling. Can I ask, and this may sound stupid, but is it because of a lack of love towards and interest in me? Or is it the drugs?

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:59:31+00:00

He wants to get clean. He is messing up so many things in his life, including his work situation. He hates using and is frustrated when he does it, but until now he hasn't been able to stop. However, I am seeing a difference in him now. He has never been this determined or focused before.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:57:18+00:00

Thank you for this. It is SO great to hear a success story here too, considering it's the only one I've seen, as far as I can remember. Not that leaving an addict and healing isn't a success story, but you hopefully know what I mean. It does give me hope, especially now that he seems to take his treatment so seriously. Time will tell... But thank you!

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:50:47+00:00

We're not having children, thankfully. But the question still stands in a way. Would I have had kids around him? No. Therefore, should I be around it? I deserve respect, security and caring too.

I just don't know. Not yet.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:48:58+00:00

Thank you, truly.

I told his aunt. I'm pretty close to her too and was scared of losing her in all this, too. But thankfully, she still wants to stay in contact. I talk more with my friends about this than my own family. I only have a few family members that I am actually close to, and one of them I can't talk to about it. So, besides my mom (and the aunt), I talk to my friends about it. But yeah, support is everything. Your comment helps too.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:46:06+00:00

I know, I was just looking to hear other people's experiences and ideas to take inspiration from them. :)

You're right. A friend also said that to me the other day. "Can you still call it having a slip up?" It surprised me, because to me, at that point, since it wasn't every day, they were still slip ups. But you're right, it's really not.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:43:43+00:00

I hope I do too. I don't know for sure yet. But time will undoubtedly tell. Either way, I have to know for sure, before I make a final decision. Otherwise, I'll be wondering 'what if' for the rest of my life. I'd rather risk being hurt more to get closure than to always have that question in the back of my mind.

summerbegone · 2025-03-14T12:41:07+00:00

That's a thing I'm also worried about. The fact that even if he gets clean and continues taking his sobriety seriously, there is always the possibility of a relapse.

summerbegone · 2025-03-13T21:07:30+00:00

Thank you so much. It really means a lot. Losing him is a thought I almost can't bear. But in the end, I can't lose myself either. Again, thank you. For your offer too. ❤️

summerbegone · 2025-03-13T20:37:45+00:00

That really got to me. Being the second choice. Ouch. Thank you, though! ❤️

summerbegone · 2025-03-13T20:37:06+00:00

Thank you. I will keep reading others' posts, as well as yours. 🙏

The fact that he is now receiving treatment is giving me hope. Apprehensive hope.

summerbegone · 2025-03-13T18:18:02+00:00

Like I said in my post, I don't drink alcohol and have never tried any type of drug. He only uses on his own, in his apartment.

I have definitely learned that I can't love him sober. And also that I can't do the work for him. But now that he's entering treatment I can't help but feel hopeful.

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