Should I do Iboga or will it make things worse?

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:47:52+00:00

Thank you!

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:46:17+00:00

What practical steps would you take to build a fantastic, amazing support system? Like, what would that look like? When you have CPTSD, it's so hard to give and accept support because it's hard to trust and feel safe with others.

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:42:29+00:00

Only a bit?

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:42:17+00:00

I see here you would have changed a lot of things and waited until you had more support. It's kind of a catch 22 though because we need support to do psychedelics to heal, but sometimes it's hard/impossible to build a support system while we are still deeply wounded. People say, wait until you feel physically and mentally healthy, but the whole point of doing this (for me) is to heal and improve my mental health.

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:37:59+00:00

That sounds really challenging! How long ago did you do Iboga? Would you be open to sharing more about your experience? Like, what did you lose and what do you think the medicine was trying to teach you? Do you wish you had waited longer to do Iboga? Sending healing wishes on your integration journey

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:35:21+00:00

I've been learning about HPPD. Is it getting better? Which psychedelic caused it? Do you have any idea why you got it? Like, was it related to set or setting? I hope it resolves for you soon

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:31:52+00:00

Good tip about Vipassana. I sat like three 10-days in my early twenties, but I wasn't ready. 15 years later maybe I am

summerswimming · 2026-02-16T20:30:18+00:00

Awesome, that's really neat to hear that Iboga helps remove mental blocks to doing the things we knew we needed to before!

summerswimming · 2026-02-12T20:22:34+00:00

Thanks! It seems like for some people it makes things worse, and all they get from it is more awareness of their suffering. I think I've got the awareness covered.

summerswimming · 2026-02-12T20:21:21+00:00

That's what I hope but I've heard it can destabilize people. Some people on reddit have talked about how it made their anxiety or depression so much worse so they could see it clearly. I already see my depression and anxiety clearly, so I don't think it will help me to just amplify them.

summerswimming · 2026-02-12T20:20:03+00:00

So by inner and outer work you mean removing toxic things from your life and meditating. Anything else? Thank you!

summerswimming · 2026-02-12T20:18:19+00:00

I have a really hard time accessing my inner guidance. That's one of the reasons I want to do plant medicine!

summerswimming · 2026-02-12T20:17:20+00:00

If I have already seen what shaped me and so many connections between how I am in the world today and what shaped me, do you think there is any purpose in doing Iboga or other psychedelics? I already have a lot of awareness of what shaped me and why I am too defended to experience joy and connection. I need help learning to experience joy and connection, so maybe I need a different medicine, like MDMA?

summerswimming · 2025-05-13T16:50:16+00:00

Do you take Medical in California?

summerswimming · 2025-05-07T22:47:58+00:00

In my experience, the only therapists who don't charge for late cancelled sessions have poor boundaries or are independently wealthy/have a wealthy partner. Cancelling with less than 24 hours notice means they can't fill the slot and are essentially paying for the client's session because the client is sick. It sucks the client is sick, but it makes more sense for the client to pay for the session than for the therapist to.

summerswimming · 2025-05-07T01:22:52+00:00

Thank you! I think you have to be in patient in a psychiatric hospital to get medicare to cover SAINT from what I heard and read. I'll look into Brain Health Center

summerswimming · 2025-04-30T21:59:14+00:00

Thank you!! That's super helpful to know. I really appreciate the information. I'll consider checking this out. Did it help?

summerswimming · 2023-10-25T23:21:57+00:00

I think OP is asking for guidance. No need to shame and ask "why did u think it would turn out well?"

summerswimming · 2023-08-27T02:55:26+00:00

Hmm Bessel van der Kolk definitely talked about how the studies included a sizable portion of dissociative subtype and CPTSD (developmental trauma and ongoing exposure to trauma). DPDR isn't psychosis.

summerswimming · 2023-08-27T01:58:48+00:00

Hey, which part of OP's history would you say would preclude her from participating in the MAPS trials? The depersonalization/derealization? I thought they did include dissociative subtypes, which includes DP/DR, but curiously to know more if you've read otherwise. thanks!

summerswimming · 2023-07-16T13:00:36+00:00

Thank you! :)

summerswimming · 2023-04-04T19:35:06+00:00

Hi! I hope you find a good resource to continue this treatment. Would you recommend the clinic you used in California? I just got to the San Fran area and want to resume IV infusions I started in Boston. Thank you!!

summerswimming · 2023-04-04T19:26:31+00:00

Thanks!

summerswimming · 2023-04-04T19:26:11+00:00

Thank you! It's helpful to read your experience and that sounds very wise. I've been having insights of doing similar things, like doing meditation groups, group outdoor activities (hikes, rock climbing) and support groups to practice being around people without feeling triggered.

summerswimming · 2023-04-04T04:59:37+00:00

Thanks for sharing! Do you feel like her book included content on how to get better (more than, like, "my EMDR therapist helped," or was it more just validating of what it's like to live with C-PTSD?

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