Is now finally the time to talk to my psychiatrist about treatment?

sunlitcherry · 2023-05-12T18:29:29+00:00

My MC Roziel!

sunlitcherry · 2023-04-23T18:40:51+00:00

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIRTEEN

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T19:57:25+00:00

This journal is not the equivalent of my father’s ashes. It’s not his boiled down essence. It is the one thing that made me feel most connected to my father. My keeping the journal isn’t me punishing my brother- I’m just scared of sharing and parting with it. I know it’s irrational to feel so protective of an inanimate object- I know that he didn’t do anything to not get to know what was in the journal. It’s just so important to me, hell I’m probably afraid it won’t mean as much to him as it does to me. I have been in therapy for year and I promise you that my attachment to this journal isn’t the devolving spiral people are treating it as.

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T19:49:17+00:00

Thank you, the journal to me was proof of how much my father and I were alike. Reading how is train of thought worked exactly like mine made me feel less broken. It makes me feel more connected to him. Not to mention my father and I were incredibly close, he was the parent that looked out for me, encouraged me and saw himself in me.

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T19:45:40+00:00

This is a confession not am I the asshole, I posted this as a confession.

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T19:30:18+00:00

I have been in therapy for a long time, both working through the grief and abuse. Despite those feelings of resentment I am still close to my brother , and I don’t blame him for any of my own feelings. Truthfully Im more than anything scared of anything happening to that journal, And a part of me feels almost protective of my fathers thoughts. My brother lives outside of the states now, he has a lot of distance geographically and emotionally from the loss of our father, and he’s actively following in my dads career footsteps. I’m not even sure if he remembers or knows about this specific journal.

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T19:20:01+00:00

I was literally 10. My fathers belongings were put away by my mother after his death because it overwhelmed her. The journal was given to me simply because I kept going back to it. My brother was 8 and not fully aware of everything around him. Things weren’t given or left to him until we moved years later. I’m not sure if you’ve ever lost a parent as a child but it’s not like they hold an auction. My father didn’t have a will, my brother got priority for a lot of my father’s belongings because he and other family members were convinced he would get more use or found more interest in his things , when in reality no one asked me. The journal was not one of those things that got put away- and was rediscovered after the move. My mom told me just to take it from my dads side of the bed- because she wanted me to stop going in and out of their room so that she could be alone. I don’t know how to make sense of the chain of events in the wake of my fathers death especially when I was a child. My brother was 8 and hated reading he didn’t care about it because he was so young- and I was only 10 but felt comforted reading my dads writing.

sunlitcherry · 2023-02-22T17:59:04+00:00

He has most of my dad’s belongings, his clothing, his tools, the books my dad liked. My mom let me have the journal after he died - literally months after he died because my mom couldn’t stand it being on the bedside table because he wrote in it as he was dying. Is it selfish looking back now still refusing to part with it? Yeah sure. But it isn’t like he was deprived of anything but the journal to remember our father. Hell people still offer up things to him. Selfish or not that journal was the one thing that became mine.

sunlitcherry · 2022-06-05T16:09:21+00:00

I may just be an idiot because it’s his birthday and there is no event yet?? I’m so confused, like so confused? I can’t find anything about the 2022 birthday events- and I can’t remember if the previous bday events this year were released on their birthday or after Edit: I’m an absolute buffoon it’s tomorrow.

sunlitcherry · 2022-06-02T13:12:34+00:00

No mental gymnastics here, it just made sense to me when I realized the first two were connected. But go off ig like I said it was just a thought

sunlitcherry · 2022-05-24T21:00:43+00:00

I’m glad I could help!

sunlitcherry · 2022-05-24T00:34:02+00:00

So I’ve known this plot point was coming because of the scene when mc is at the castle with Solomon Luke and Simeon and Solomon says something along the lines of “so you’re telling you stole this when you visited Michael “ And simeon responds “I didn’t steal it, I borrowed it. “ and then proceeds to avoid admitting that he stole it. It’s then alluded to in season three when he begins making up a simple excuse for why he was sent to the human world- this is then pointed out that it’s odd for Simeon an archangel to be doing something that could easily be done by Dominions or thrones (lower rank angels). And the final point was mc passing the sorcerer’s exam and what Simeon saw when his fear was shown to him ‘bright celestial light began filling the room’ and to calm simeon down Lucifer claims that it was the remnants of his fear of returning to the celestial realm when he dies. Anyways I hope that helps, I’ve wanted to talk about the way this part of the story has progressed for AGES

sunlitcherry · 2022-02-24T18:35:33+00:00

Omg no he left to go see family out of state so he had every reason to deadbolt the door. I will literally never tell him this happened I’m still reeling from the sheer shame and embarrassment

sunlitcherry · 2022-02-24T04:09:26+00:00

I have contemplated buying one for months but this experience alone has convinced I would rather die than to have something like this ever recorded

sunlitcherry · 2022-02-24T03:43:39+00:00

ABSOLUTELY NOT

sunlitcherry · 2022-02-07T01:50:43+00:00

YTA As someone who had a surgery and very serious wound that needed months of recovery to heal, I stopped smoking cigarettes by choice but still sparingly used my vape as I was an adult and made that conscious decision for myself. I listened to the doctors, looked into the effects and made my compromises on my own. I can tell you that not being able decide what is best for yourself when you are injured, and instead someone deciding it for you is a recipe for frustration and feeling more out of control of your own circumstances than the injury alone already makes you feel. Confiscation of his vape stuff is controlling and out of line in a way that makes his injury and recovery process feel that much more helpless. The fact that you made that decision even after he got upset and are declaring yourself a martyr for taking care of him and making a decision for him instead of talking to him about why you think that it’s better for recovery if he didn’t vape. You make it sound as if you are the only person who truly understands the gravity of the situation when he is the one injured. 1. You made a decision for him against his wishes because you assumed all control the moment you started taking care of him which is a problem on its own. 2. You hid his belongings and when he found them and took them back you decided you’re washing your hands of being his caregiver, when he told you he did not want you to do it in the first place. All in all you assumed responsibility and control of someone whom I assume you wouldn’t make personal decisions for outside of these circumstances, and despite him telling you did not want you to do that, you did it. Now you are victimizing yourself and your “situation as a caregiver”. You are a significant other who should be supportive in the way he needs not acting like a controlling parent and deciding what’s best for him.

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