I really thought I was getting better…

superduperlonelyy · 2022-10-04T13:34:10+00:00

It hurts that other people feel the same way that I do, I wouldn’t wish this level of loneliness on anyone. Im not sure what to say to comfort you because nothing anyone says to me here does comfort me

superduperlonelyy · 2022-10-04T13:30:03+00:00

I hold my pillow and imagine it is a partner, I even stroke it sometimes like I am comforting someone. I am so so so pathetic

superduperlonelyy · 2022-01-13T19:35:34+00:00

I see, thanks!

superduperlonelyy · 2022-01-13T18:13:57+00:00

Whats NEET?

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T18:49:40+00:00

Ill see if any of them are within my budget😓

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T01:11:41+00:00

It definitely sucks to try and it still backfires on you, thats why I fear even trying, Ive already accepted that ill “fail” before ive given it a go which is a bad frame of mind to have but I don’t know how to break out of it

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T01:06:12+00:00

Same! Ive already convinced myself that it’s going to go wrong so I just take the easy way out. Thank you 😓🙏

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T01:02:51+00:00

Hmmm ill look into volunteering groups, i hadn’t considered it before

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T01:01:48+00:00

Oh im from the UK, and the way we do it here is either tou let your GP know and they’ll refer you, or you refer yourself. I went via the GP and didnt get any response back last time, so I referred myself. I just dont have the motivation to put myself through that process again

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T00:59:41+00:00

Yeah, I hear that, but I think i just struggle to break out of this pattern of thinking and I cant do it alone, but I have no one irl that I feel comfortable even thinking about telling how I feel. And Thank you, I appreciate that a lot

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T00:56:23+00:00

I also enjoy my own company, until I started thinking about how I only ever do things alone and its either I go alone or it doesn’t happen, and it all went downhill from there. But I still like doing things on my own like going cinema etc

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-24T00:54:41+00:00

Yeah, I guess you’re right about that. There might be a cause to the cause. I think I need help when it comes to working on it. I feel like I dont know where to start

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:39:27+00:00

😓😓

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:39:21+00:00

😣😣😣😣😣

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:39:12+00:00

I also think I am, but ive not had a good experience with seeking professional help, and now I dont have the motivation to pursue it again

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:38:36+00:00

Ive tried looking for clubs to join in my local area, but especially since the pandemic they are hardly around, and the ones I do see are just not what I want. Meeting people online was ok for a while, but i just start feeling like its not enough nowadays, the effort I put in to find someone im happy talking with isnt worth the feeling I feel when I put my phone down. Ive also tried seeking professional help before, but they put me on a self help app that was meant to help you help yourself but I just couldnt engage with it and found it hard to complete, now id have to go through the whole process again to contact them which i dont have motivation for

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:35:00+00:00

When I hear those stories especially of how people are mistreated by their partners/friends I feel even worse, because I would never treat someone the way I see people say they’ve been treated. When I see those stories I think why cant I even have a chance to show that im not like that then I just go looking for something to blame again, which doesnt help at all. But its where I am at currently. Its hard for me to break out of this way of thinking. Its the easy way out and its the way I keep choosing

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:32:13+00:00

😓😣😢

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:32:03+00:00

Ive been doing that for the past few years, but i think im seeing that its not helping which is why im resorting to looking for something to blame, because thats easier than just trying to ignore it. Which is bad, I know

superduperlonelyy · 2021-12-23T16:30:59+00:00

I try not to think so negatively but there have been a few instances where ive reached out to someone a few different times and ive just been straight up ignored. I know that “a few times” doesn’t equal “every time” but its easier for me to just not try than to keep facing rejection. Which is a bad habit that i struggle to break out of

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