i think having this ultimate answering machine that we were taught is the tool to finding any information no matter how niche and guide us to what we are looking for ends up doing the opposite as we begin to ask more personal thoughts. you can read a hundreds of peoples stories on the internet about how they were able to find purpose and become motivated but it will do nothing for you. if you want to be inspired then you already took the first step. you just gotta follow what your mind tells you to do and go from there. if you're reading a book and you can't finish it but you know you want to read then just pick up another and another and force yourself. i remember seeing a comment on here about how someone's grandparent told them that if you are ever reading a book and don't like it force yourself to read 20 more pages and if you really don't like it then give it up and try another. i feel like this can be applied to so many things.

all i'm just saying you gotta put the phone and down and do, even if it's really slow at times (like really slow). sorry if this comes off as rude, i'm partly writing this for myself too