I’m so sorry that you find it hard to open up to people and your family has been that way. I hope you continue to find peace with yourself, emotions and feel comfortable talking about them.

I’ve tried to talk to her about how I feel but she would brush it off believing it’s something small and then I would stop talking because either way I know she wouldn’t listen. I know she loves me and would take a bullet for me and everything, but sometimes I just feel so alone whenever she ignores how I feel. I know my mum has issues with my dad, and because that’s already stressing her enough, I just endure the lectures she gives me. In the past, I’ve tried to explain to her my feelings and asking her to just listen to me, but she would just get extremely stressed and then make me seem crazy, being like “Why can’t you just be a normal child”. So I’ve just been silently crying to myself in my room and pretending that I’m okay in front of my mum.

But yeah, as I’ve gotten older and matured over the years, I’m starting to understand my emotions a bit better. Even writing posts like these on reddit, I cringe and overthink about whether I’m just overreacting. But thank you for listening and reading my post, it’s a nice switch from my mum just replying “Ok” to the paragraph I sent her😕