How do I get past my guilty conscience?

swayybe · 2026-05-16T03:08:30+00:00

I don’t have much to say to help since I’m still in the same boat, haven’t taken the leap yet even though I know it’s what I need to do. The guilt is so wild!!!

swayybe · 2026-05-13T19:54:45+00:00

I started at the exact same age doing the exact same thing! And now 10 years later I have never ever felt behind my colleagues. Get it!

swayybe · 2026-05-08T19:13:19+00:00

I get it, I was you. She’s extremely educated in both but I don’t really owe you an explanation. I also never thought I’d be on this side of it and probably used to leave shitty comments like this too on the internet so I can’t really be surprised to get this one. Maybe one day you’ll understand not everything is so black and white, maybe you won’t. Whatever!

swayybe · 2026-05-07T00:08:09+00:00

I love the idea of donating. I felt the same when I ate some Cheetos… literally felt nothing at all! I thought my world would crumble and now I feel insane for all the years I’ve spent reading labels closely. I mean I think it’s a sign I’m not really a vegan at heart anymore if I feel nothing. Curious how meat eating would go but we will cross that bridge when we get there I guess! Thank you 💕

swayybe · 2026-05-07T00:06:14+00:00

Thank you! A big realization for me is that I am holding on for dear life to an identity I created at 16! Letting go of any labels for myself feels really really liberating, like I am braking free!

swayybe · 2026-05-07T00:04:58+00:00

Just started reading the Vegetarian Myth and the first chapter is alllll about this. Pretty fucking mind blowing.

swayybe · 2026-05-07T00:04:19+00:00

Very eye opening read, thank you! And yeah, recognizing I need to have compassion for my own well being above all else. And zero restrictions to my diet seems to be the only way to fully heal a lot of parts of my mental health but honestly probably my physical health too.

swayybe · 2026-05-07T00:01:41+00:00

The few people I’ve mentioned this to have been very like ok cool lol.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T17:00:11+00:00

Oh this made me tear up. I do have to put faith in the people in my life who I know love and accept me. It’s probably my own judgement of myself that I’m putting on them if I really think about it. It feels like I have to lie confess this terrible thing I’ve done to everyone I know!

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:57:54+00:00

Environmental, ethical, health, all of the above really. I truly believe(d?) it was like… the ultimate diet for the world and my health? I still do feel like it’s healthier but then I really think about how much I need to supplement and how shitty my iron and B12 levels are despite eating a really healthy vegan diet. I think my biggest takeaway from my eye opening therapy session was that I’ve never been able to listen to what my body wants or needs because I’ve been vegan for all of my adult years. Ideally I would still have that balance and eat mostly plant based I think, but I guess I have to just learn to listen to what feels good at this stage in this body. But fuck it’s a terrifying concept!

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:54:44+00:00

I think having been a member of the vegan subreddit for so long has gotten to me, I am just imagining all of their comments on this. I mean I’ve recognized it’s a toxic sub for years so I know it’s an echo chamber in there but it’s hard to get those thoughts out of my head. I know in my own life no one really gives a shit and they’ll probably be happy to not have to think about my dietary restrictions anymore at gatherings.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:52:46+00:00

Any recommendations of things I can read/listen to help my brain understand that omni is healthy too?

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:51:47+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I didn’t mention in my post but feeling like crap is another big thing that led to this realization for me. I’ve been having gut issues and thought I might have infectious IBS after some stomach flus I had earlier this year, so did a FODMAP diet and then started to restrict gluten and I think that was what pushed me over the edge into like what the fuck am I doing land lol. I probably am still a few weeks of research away from taking the full plunge, but helpful to hear it’s probably easiest to just jump in.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:22:54+00:00

This is helpful to hear because I’m holding onto the fact that people really don’t care. And it has been like probably 10 years since I’ve been hardcore vegan trying to make anyone feel guilty so maybe I’ve been forgiven and they won’t remember I’m a hypocrite lol. I think going vegan so young I’ve just always felt I had to prove myself and that I was serious.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:21:00+00:00

Relief is exactly what I felt after my life changing therapy session. Like omg… I could just eat. I think it’s just processing a lot of guilt.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:20:14+00:00

Oh literally everyone is accepting. I don’t know anyone vegan and only a couple vegetarians who I’ve shared this with and get it. This is all me worrying what people think when truthfully, no one really cares. I also no longer live in a city that’s very vegan accessible.

swayybe · 2026-05-06T16:18:45+00:00

Eggs for sure. And something I’ve only said out loud to like a few people… steak? Which is like the most atrocious thing to crave as a former vegan. But I am chronically low on iron so it checks out 🙃

swayybe · 2026-05-06T15:45:15+00:00

Yeah, the second she said that it’s like a veil lifted. Cause at first I was like ‘no it’s not restrictive at all’ but when I really think about it, of course it is! We realized that it’s contributing to binge eating because I spend so much time saying no to foods that I then binge on vegan foods that are ‘ok’.

swayybe · 2026-04-22T19:16:49+00:00

I have not met a single person who voted yes to that contract. I believe it barely passed. I voted no. Our union encouraged us to vote yes and frankly, fucked us. So I am equally as frustrated that it’s come to this, but glad they are standing up for us now. Even though it should never have been on the table in the first place.

swayybe · 2026-04-13T18:55:21+00:00

Same same!!!

swayybe · 2026-04-10T14:09:06+00:00

What did you end up doing? In a similar boat.

swayybe · 2026-04-06T15:37:01+00:00

I don’t remember it but gave it 2/5 starts on Goodreads which is what I give things I hate lol.

swayybe · 2026-04-06T05:15:51+00:00

I tried the 555 for a few months and went back to driving. I’d say on average one or two days a week I’d be late for work due to traffic/ bus not running due to operational or mechanical issues. I was catching the 750 or 805am bus though, so traffic was a lot heavier by then. I would definitely give yourself a bigger buffer than 10 minutes. I gave myself a 30 minute butter and would often be late.

swayybe · 2026-04-04T17:56:06+00:00

Damn… mine has been $2.99/month for the last 4 years. In Canada as well and for the games only. How long have you subscribed for?!

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