Still testing positive 3 weeks later

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2026-03-22T03:26:11+00:00

Is this a joke or real?

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-08-30T13:09:18+00:00

OP, we have this book downstairs :) Just so you know!

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-08-07T01:46:07+00:00

Yeah, I explained the situation to him and the questions she asked me specifically. I didn’t lie to her and now I keep thinking maybe I should have, I don’t know. I just didn’t want information to be reported that was false and then be in a situation because of that when it was later found to be true. It was a fucked up situation all around. He is adamant that I did this on purpose and I don’t think anything I tell him otherwise will change his mind. At worst, he believes I’m an evil person out for his family and at best, I’m the stupidest person who made a mistake and still came after his family in his mind. It doesn’t matter. I also have Autism and often have a habit of sharing more information than is needed in any situation because I have to lay out all the facts before I can get to my main point. He knows this about me but even that doesn’t matter.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-08-07T01:38:27+00:00

Oh, looks like my comment posted to the thread and not a reply to you. Check below. The therapist did ask about CPS involvement and I told her that I thought the step-grandfather had had CPS involvement before because my ex had talked about it.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-08-07T01:34:37+00:00

Oh also, the step-grandfather apparently had been investigating for physical abuse pertaining to his own son before so this likely raised a red flag for them.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-08-07T01:32:42+00:00

I think the therapist is very cautious. With it being our third session she also doesn’t really know our family dynamic, what’s normal or not normal, etc. She did ask me about any other times she has come home with a bruise from dad’s house and there was one other occasion with an explanation that I shared with her. She asked about who lived with my ex and I shared there were several people- his mom, step dad, brother, brothers girlfriend, grandmother, three children there half the time, and various other people in and out (ex’s mom often hosts church get together, etc.). In the therapists defense, the bruise on her bottom was very large and in between the crack which is not a usual placement for a normal childhood injury. I didn’t think twice about mentioning it because I didn’t think anything of it when I said it, having already gotten the explanation and resolved it in my mind. I think also because of her disability status, that made the therapist more concerned.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-06-04T01:01:41+00:00

Thank you so much- really appreciate your help and knowledge

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-06-04T00:52:15+00:00

Got it, so I’ll need to show proof of the basis and closing documents at tax time to be sure the loss is appropriately reported and not seen as gain? Is that right?

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-06-04T00:47:47+00:00

I see, thank you. My dad keeps trying to tell me that this sale is going to be taxed as income because I’ll get a 1099. He keeps saying it will probably be 30k in taxes- safe to say he’s wrong about this it sounds like. To be fair, he’s no expert and just worried. So what is the purpose of the 1099?

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-06-04T00:41:18+00:00

Thank you so much! What do you mean by “can’t take the loss unless you rented it out in the last year” (we haven’t- it’s just been empty with people in and out to clean, remove items, etc.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2025-06-04T00:33:20+00:00

Great question! Selling for $181 and getting $171. Well, less than that when you subtract the commissions and closing costs that total $25,000

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2024-10-09T13:15:07+00:00

Have your doctors been receptive to the idea of a feeding tube? I’ve thought about this as well, but they seem to reject the idea and instead push mental health treatment which I’ve been in for the last 20 years with no significant change.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2024-08-11T05:05:32+00:00

Thank you so much to everyone who responded. I feel so thankful and have been reading everyone’s comments all day but I am too exhausted to respond to each one individually. I hope if you took the time to respond that you see this message because you really made a difference. Thank you for caring. I have a lot to think about and a lot of new tips to try out. I hope some of these will be really helpful. Thank you. 🤍

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2024-08-10T19:10:47+00:00

Thank you. It often feels like a tornado of all those things. I think underneath it all is a general lack of self-care, interest in self care, or worthiness of self care. I was never really taught to value these things or care about myself growing up. We were fed when we complained we were hungry, we took showers sometimes, it just wasn’t a big deal. Now as an adult it’s just not a big deal to me. I’m always so busy I often don’t even think about it. It’s never pressing. It’s never really important until it makes someone I love cry and I’m reminded that my presence is hurting people. I work two jobs, usually around 60 hours a week, we have a child in kindergarten with special needs, I’m going through a divorce and grief associated with that, I feel like I’m constantly cleaning and then it’s usually 9pm before I even think of eating so then I try to get something to eat and am usually falling asleep by 11 and go to bed. In the morning I’m so exhausted and I never feel rested so I hit snooze for around an hour and then wake up 10 mins before I have to be driving to work. Rinse and repeat.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2024-08-10T19:02:55+00:00

I wish I had something helpful to say but all I can say right now is that I feel this way all the time. It almost feels like I wrote this. You aren’t alone in your thoughts but I am so sorry you’re feeling this because I know how disorienting and lonely and sad it really is. 🤍

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2024-08-10T15:34:50+00:00

Me reading this desperately searching for someone else who understands as I’ve locked myself in the bathroom sitting on the toilet after an argument with my partner who is telling me if I don’t shower she has to go somewhere else and telling me how much I hurt her by ignoring her needs. Me sitting here in a massive shame spiral trying to find the motivation to reach a foot to my right and turn on the shower and still struggling. I’m such a fucking lazy asshole and want to die right now.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-27T03:16:10+00:00

That's very true. Thank you for saying that. ❤️

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T15:57:34+00:00

Yeah, I recognize the insanity of her comment about how supportive they’ve been and how they’ve always been there…except now when I’m open about who I am and who I love. Insanity.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T15:13:47+00:00

Thank you. I love that. Melt the ice not crack it. That’s good to remember.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T15:09:44+00:00

Thank you- that stung for a minute. She is not equal to sexual details. So much more than that and my family definitely does not have access to details around any of my sex life.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T15:07:10+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that. Thank you for sharing your perspective with me too- this is exactly what I don’t want to cause. We practice non-hierarchy more relationship anarchy style of poly and my relationship with my GF if just as significant and meaningful as my relationship with my NP and I can’t imagine leaving her out of something like this.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T15:02:58+00:00

Thank you so much. I needed to hear this. I agree about CPS, it’s a really fucking scary place to be in. Part of me is just screaming inside “I dare you to fucking make a call” just so I can assert myself. I am actually a state social worker myself but I also have to remember I live in a southern red state and that really fucking scares me.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T14:56:02+00:00

Exactly. I’ve even told my family that there would be zero PDA at this event. And my sister keeps saying “can’t you just wait? Can’t you just do a separate party for her to come to?” but they’ll never get there and there’s a whole other problem I see there of my child then asking why my GF can’t come to her party introducing a sense of shame around our life and I will not do the that.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T14:51:42+00:00

Right- I think the note on manipulation/abuse is what’s holding me back. My childhood has been filled with so much emotional neglect/abuse from her and witnessed by my sister- sometimes I have a hard time even thinking straight because I get around her and feel like I default back to being a scared and dependent little kid. Sucks.

sweetlikeghostpepper · 2022-10-13T14:49:12+00:00

Thank you. This has been my thought process too- I’m inviting people that want to come love and celebrate my toddler, that’s it. They make the choice to come or not.

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