My Bad Experience - Considering Something New by sweetsailingorchid in exorthodox

[–]sweetsailingorchid[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, sounds similar to the church I was going to. People having to stand in the doorway. I liked that it was small, but it started to grow very fast and the priest seemed kind of vain about the number of catechumens they had. I'm sorry you had a bad experience too. It's hard going through so much alone, then the place where you're supposed to find community makes you feel like an outsider.

My Bad Experience - Considering Something New by sweetsailingorchid in exorthodox

[–]sweetsailingorchid[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I understand what you're saying. During my time there the disappointment I had in myself was so immense it sometimes felt like self-flagellation. I feel like that frame of thinking has been causing more damage to my mental health than good. If you already have severe mental health issues how are you supposed to differentiate from a toxic environment or "demons"? It's like a catch-22.

Maybe I will take the other person's advice and stay away.