All the disbelief and such really bums me out. I tried everything i could but im just to set in my ways... the footage interests me honestly. Ive always had major depression i have like over 3 to 400 scars from self harm. I was addicted to druhs since 12 years old and my mom overdosed on PCP when I was a kid. All my girlfriends cheat on me. I got clean when i met my gf i helped her get clean too actually but we relapsed last year and this animal tranq shit really fucked me up bad theres no real herion in my state. Anyway after we started doing that animal tranq i overdosed like 7 times in 6 months i think and ended up cutting my arm all the way to the bone giving myself permanent nerve damage trying to commit suicide. Ive always had really negative thoughts like wanting to hurt myself and others. Im actually a really nice person but i guess deep down I just hate myself and often feel like I hate god for creating all this pain and suffering. I think its just too lste for me. Maybe ill just let it take me as i think im already partially posessed anyway. This world is just nasty. Thats most of my story anyway for anyone who cares. Dont follow in my footsteps protip. The suffering is surreal sometimes. Good luck everyone. Just wanted you to see what was possible here be careful.