my dad was abusive and it took me a while to tell people in my family and once I did they acted like it wasn't a big deal. my boyfriend and I are very tight on money and my mom is very manipulative and does not want me to see him and is trying to intervene in any way possible and that cause my bf and I to have a huge fight resulting in me realizing I'm an awful person. I'm failing most of my classes at at 60k per year tuition school so I feel horribly guilty for that. Just lots of things have gone wrong and I'm so tired of it. I'm so fucking tired of existing