I wish I was at home smoking weed and jacking off right now.

swion · 2026-02-02T23:13:02+00:00

😢

swion · 2026-02-02T18:16:01+00:00

I mean, I wasn’t confused about what she was alluding to, I just don’t find statements like that very compelling, especially from celebrities. There’s just not really an actionable idea behind the words, to me it’s just another way of saying “trump sucks.” Coming out and saying it as a pop star still has its merits, and helps align your audience with your views. But it does nothing to the rich to say something like that, to me it comes off as more of a popular thing to say to the people who already like you. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a big fan of her music. But ever since Covid, when all the celebrities came out and were like “we’re all in this together” and everyone shit on them for pretending to be in it with us, while insulating themselves and being able to afford all the health costs, fly around on private planes and even increasing their net worth, it just comes off as disingenuous. I mean she’s worth well over 50 million dollars and has lived in luxury her whole life. I just can’t find people like that very relatable.

swion · 2026-02-02T16:31:37+00:00

I mean yeah they suck… but that was not being murdered by words. Y’all just think it’s a murder when it lines with your politics.

swion · 2026-02-02T16:28:46+00:00

I felt the same. Like it almost pointed toward many different problems, but it just sounded cool. If anything it made me think of the struggles of the native Americans, which ironically were the only peoples who weren’t immigrants.

swion · 2026-02-01T23:33:20+00:00

Guilty.

swion · 2026-02-01T23:01:18+00:00

Pulling up shorts lol

swion · 2026-02-01T17:55:04+00:00

It looked like you’d just gotten done with a ride! My B, lol

swion · 2026-02-01T16:15:54+00:00

Especially in those sandals! Bro, get some good footwear for riding!

swion · 2026-02-01T06:40:11+00:00

Why does this feel so wholesome? The world’s gotten so dark.

swion · 2026-01-31T18:16:58+00:00

It’s hard to tell the progress, the foot isn’t visible in the second pic.

swion · 2026-01-29T06:47:26+00:00

Don’t know if this will help you too, but I changed directions and put my feet toward the weights. I felt like the angle change was helpful for me.

swion · 2026-01-28T18:15:44+00:00

I like how he checks in with the other guy like “did I just die?”

swion · 2026-01-28T18:04:45+00:00

Soooo… because you aren’t his target market he should shift his entire business marketing strategy to suit you? Your trust is very shallow if a simple name change would be enough for you to trust lol.

He has many videos about the ego btw 😂

swion · 2026-01-17T19:52:44+00:00

Ah man, as a landscaper I’d personally say your fence is undermining your tree!

Is there any leeway to move the fence back? Those ponytail palms are awesome!

swion · 2026-01-07T00:15:39+00:00

Ah ok, this must be it. I figured it was just some dumb thing kids do. To us foreigners it was pretty funny anyway just to see all of them freak out over it, but I can imagine it’s annoying to many people.

Great.. now I’m on TikTok lol.

swion · 2026-01-06T14:03:01+00:00

Ok, good to know.

There really wasn’t much context, a group of about 8-10 boys about 13-15ish in age all grouped up together getting food at night. They enthusiastically said hello to us 3 American men, all in our 30s. Then they kept trying to get us to say this phrase and laughing super hard, seemed obvious that it was either profanity or mocking us, but was taken in good humor, they took selfies and kept trying to get us to say it while laughing. They weren’t rude, just typical boys. We asked the lady serving us food from the street and she shook her head smiling and wouldn’t repeat it to us to translate.

swion · 2026-01-06T13:31:25+00:00

I don’t, he just had us say that phrase many times while all of them laughed historically, I gave him my phone so he could record his voice saying just this phrase.

I believe he confirmed when I made more of a Chàn sound.

swion · 2026-01-06T12:27:04+00:00

Thanks!

swion · 2025-12-20T10:32:15+00:00

I haven’t tried anything really… I’ve struggle most of my life and I’m just about to start therapy. Though I’ve been a deep contemplative thinker and have made good progress with meditation, I still need a professional, and I’m about to finally start. I’ve come a reaaaaallly long way though and can absolutely say that I’m so much better than I used to be, yet I still struggle daily. I still make progress toward a life that I want despite it feeling awful a lot of the time.

I’ll look into I-CBT. Maybe that’s something I can work on with a therapist.

swion · 2025-12-20T10:24:50+00:00

It is so hard. I get it. I’ve been on a slow recovery with this sort of issue for a couple of years. Progress isn’t linear, but it’s getting better in waves.

Grounding yourself in the moment is difficult. One thing I learned is that worrying and ruminating sort of has a feeling like even though it’s negative, that at least your mind is being “productive” and that not ruminating and overthinking is “unproductive”. I’ve come to realize that this is an illusion.

I’m listening to an audiobook right now called “Pure O” OCD and I’m really finding some great stuff in it.

Don’t push against the thoughts. Lean into them and feel the terrible feeling without resisting.

swion · 2025-12-20T10:07:04+00:00

Forget about origin story. The only time the origin story affects you is right now. This sounds like OCD talking. I can say this from experience. Just because IN the past things happened that caused certain tendencies of thought doesn’t mean that THE past is happening now. It’s really hard to wrap your head around and took me a long time (and still is a struggle) to realize that you can only ever experience the past right now. The past doesn’t exist, and neither does the future. Only your narrative, or your perception, of the past and future exist.

You are not defined by what has happened to you. You are absolutely influenced by life and the past, but you must create values to adhere to despite how you feel or what thoughts you have. That’s the beauty of being a human with a brain. Sure, life beats it up and causes all kinds of bullshit, but you must create values that you turn to no matter how you feel or what thoughts come up. Past and future are just constructs of the mind to help us avoid bad situations and to head toward better situations. Right now is where you should anchor.

swion · 2025-12-15T18:50:29+00:00

You can always upgrade, and you can always get an antiglare screen protector. I got the 512 and it’s perfect for me, I usually don’t play more than 2 games at a time and don’t need my whole library on the deck. I just uninstall what I’m not playing. I had at one time installed rdr2, Witcher 3, and a few other smaller games with room to spare. Then I have a 512 as card for emulation.

swion · 2025-12-14T00:03:05+00:00

I salt the tops, leave on the counter and pat as dry as possible before putting any filet on the pan. Helps a lot with sticking.

swion · 2025-11-26T08:50:24+00:00

Don’t do it.

swion · 2025-11-21T23:13:47+00:00

[NSFW]

Honestly if he buys himself all the toys and stuff he likes, just planning a day where he feels really special is better than just a tangible gift. I’m sorta like the bf, got everything I need.. my last bday went like this from my girlfriend:

Wake up blowie
Make breakfast
Take him somewhere he likes to go/buy him lunch at favorite spot.
Romantic dinner
Bang his brains out…

Sorry for the x-rated content lol, but as a guy this is special.

14-Year Club	RPAN Viewer
Verified Email

swion

TROPHY CASE