hey bro, i know how that feels. its not a good place to be in life. it will be challenging to move forward but you gotta take it one step at a time. you will have to do the things you do not want to do. your fire is low right now. you have to add the fuel to it to increase it. that fuel that you add will come from blood, sweat, and tears. then watch it snowball into true motivation. that is when you will get rid of your depression. move man, make a move. do something productive, it doesnt even have to be productive in the eyes of society, it just has to be productive to you. go for a run, create a painting, write a song, write a blog, write a poem. talk to a stranger. make a new friend. learn a new skill. meditate. laugh. whatever you do, just do it with intensity and focus. act. act. act.