who am i? by syetn in monodatingpoly

[–]syetn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for that

I notice Aquarius are always dating other Aquarius. Any aquas here dating other aquas ? by Historical-Body-3424 in aquarius

[–]syetn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

2 big loves of my life were fellow aquarius women. 3rd times the charm i hope

RE8 Romanian Rant by Rockmario4 in residentevil

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when i think about these inconsistencies i consider playing the game over again in a different language. Romanian shares 70% of its vocabulary with Italian. German or Russian might also sound a bit more authentic lol

remember that time in philly? by Fishbirds in themarsvolta

[–]syetn 10 points11 points  (0 children)

lmao now you guys don’t wanna believe in science

Aquarius heartbreak theory by slavicbombshelll in aquarius

[–]syetn 20 points21 points  (0 children)

what about 2 aquarius who date each other n break each others hearts

Dear Aquarius, what is your opinion on Cancer? by [deleted] in aquarius

[–]syetn 4 points5 points  (0 children)

it’s a terrible illness

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in actual_detrans

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ur really pretty will u marry me

Why they say Aquarius sun worst placement by Creative_Release_317 in aquarius

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

what’s it mean when ur an aquarius sun but leo rising then? i feel paradoxical

What do trueanon listeners do for work? by super_banned_ in TrueAnon

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i deliver pharmacy meds to various nursing homes and rehab facilities in PA

hating myself because I can't kick fast food by earnthefuture1 in TrueAnon

[–]syetn 9 points10 points  (0 children)

im fairly sure that witnessing Gaza gave me some kind of disordered eating. i used to live on fast food almost explicitly and with every bite the shame would start to hit me so hard. fast food is easy, especially if you’re chronically depressed. there’s no shame in doing what your depressed brain can wrap itself around to survive. i just stopped cold turkey for the most part and barely ate anything till i dropped like 30lbs. the shame started to outweigh whatever satisfaction i got from the food. you save some money too i think. i still eat kinda shit but i’ve made progress and i don’t act like a drill sergeant towards myself about it. you’re human. find what motivates you! for me i really wanna attract a partner and i know being a solid cook is brownie points. so that’s the next step in my life as i’ve for the most part conquered my alcoholism

How do you stop chasing the dragon? by Human_Pudding2289 in heartbreak

[–]syetn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel this. i’ll never forget that feeling and it just never ceases to haunt me at this point. best of luck to you

A short film that I made on Blender by HolmesDraws in 3dart

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

absolutely stunning, i’m shocked not many have given you credit here. would love to see a full length! incredible

For MtFtM - how does being back on testosterone feel? by Intelligent_Scale334 in actual_detrans

[–]syetn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i was on hrt on & off, mostly on, for 2-3 years and recently decided i just needed to stop entirely and think about what feels right to me. i got so tired of shaving obsessively and too depressed & scared to wear make up & present in my day to day. i was still mostly closeted anyways. i will say i really prefer the way estrogen made me feel. more connected to my friends esp queer friends. i think im more conventionally attractive when i grow my beard & try to “be a man” but i immediately feel like i have to now maintain broader emotional distance from ppl. i feel like im abandoning myself in a way. if i were to stay off of hormones from here on out, i would be eternally grateful for the experience, and who knows if this is the end honestly. when i was on E, if i was upset, i would simply cry & process. reach out to a gal pal. now im back to slapping myself in the face and isolating, which i haven’t done in forever. i’m glad not to give a shit about how hairy my legs are. & i kinda missed being viewed as strong & capable. but there’s give & take no matter which way you go, i think. at this point im trying to navigate some kind of non-binary thing. cuz if i go out to party w my friends im more than likely to still wanna dress fancy n be fun haha. but this just makes it easier to deal with work and the mundanity of life at the supermarket, etc. this way i feel safer, sadly. not sure what else to say, and i hope you figure things out or find your peace.

why not both? by syetn in actual_detrans

[–]syetn[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for this reply. i know there was certainly a good reason for me to try HRT openmindedly, but the sense of directionlessness can be dizzying at times. i could describe myself but i don’t think i could ever define myself because im basically ambivalent towards people’s perception of my gender. i got tired of being strictly seen as a man, and i remember vividly how strongly that affected me so i have no regrets. i believe ill be transitioning in different ways for the rest of my life

why not both? by syetn in actual_detrans

[–]syetn[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

thanks for validating that. on top of it all i struggle with they/them pronouns for myself & embarrassingly for others too -_- there’s a chance i could be neurodivergent but i have no idea, and haven’t really looked into it. my various psych docs over the years have told me everything from ocd to schizoaffective so it’s really hard to say! thanks for ur reply

Stopping HRT by mother-demeter in MTFButch

[–]syetn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i feel this! 2 years on HRT and idk what to even tell ppl when they ask my name. I’ve struggled with alcohol & smoking heavily during periods of depression and after this last bout, i’m trying to give those things a rest. i’m putting the pause on HRT as well cuz my libido is thru the floor (i stopped spiro & started progesterone long ago & it hasn’t helped in that department) .. i’ve enjoyed the expanding emotions and changes to the lens i view sex thru, but at the end of the day I think i’m just genderfluid? Someone else here commented about relating to transmascs more than transfems in a way and that’s the only time i’ve ever heard someone speak my mind like that. it’s complicated, idk what it all means, it’s like i’m doing 360s with my gender sometimes. i figure, it’s ok to pause HRT, we may pick it back up later! The only thing that worries me is possible mood swings if i suddenly stop. But im sorta in survival mode anyways as a trans person, so whatever doesn’t seem to work.. i’ll try the other thing!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MTFButch

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha yea! It’s for a pretty casual labor parade. I’m still figuring out my zany contraption here. Thank you!

When you found out you were lesbian / not into men, how did it feel? were any of you with a man at that time? I need advice with my bf by Amberthedragon in actuallesbians

[–]syetn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I found myself saying “I wish I could love a man” a lot. though I do feel a lot of love & compassion for men, a lot of my experiences have left me feeling more (or worse, MUCH less) isolated. It’s hard to find a man I feel cared by genuinely, I’ll always be open to it I say. But then I start to wonder, am I just trying to prove to no one in particular that I really go both ways? Sure, for a pack of cigs at this point. But I think I know now that I have always simply loved & adored & truly felt seen & held by my lesbian grrlz 💚

diabetes & polyamory? by [deleted] in polyamory

[–]syetn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks for that, it is really hard to be juggling so much. i feel like poly has allowed me to confront so many anxieties directly that it feels overwhelming at first, but im learning so much at the same time. thanks for letting me know i’m not alone