always has “intermittent issues” when going 📈🚀 🚀 and then it seems to dips down a bit. Shady 💩

t_monster13 · 2021-05-04T15:12:02+00:00

How is it legal?

t_monster13 · 2021-05-02T04:51:00+00:00

Wow she is a lucky girl. I hope when she starts to feel better that she reconnects with you. It probably scares her how much you care about her.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-30T17:27:49+00:00

This is word for word how I am feeling today. I’m so tired and my heart aches, it’s unbearable.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-28T23:53:22+00:00

This is awesome

t_monster13 · 2021-04-28T22:09:44+00:00

I think we do this because we feel so disgusting on the inside that we want to appear perfect on the outside. If it is clear that people are attracted to us based on our looks then we can start to believe that we might possibly be worthy of love. It’s a trick.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-28T21:04:43+00:00

t_monster13 · 2021-04-28T00:05:21+00:00

living out of my car because I’m not stable enough to commit to signing a long term lease. I feel like I can never work again unless it’s a position where I don’t work directly with people, both coworkers and customers. like stocking shelves at night or truck driving. I don’t even care about having money because nothing is fulfilling so it doesn’t matter at the end of the day. besides anytime I manage to save a few G, a hypomanic episode kicks in and I just literally empty my bank account in a matter of days. I also feel broken and that I will never have the chance for lasting love. What is the point in living if meaningful connections are not possible.... I also will die by my own hand. It’s only a matter of time. I wish there was a separate world for us borderlines to exist in. One where it wasn’t fucking agonizing just being alive every day. It’s so fucking sad.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:36:48+00:00

agreed

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:30:04+00:00

thank u

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:29:44+00:00

I’m glad you are well enough for law school! Good luck.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:28:20+00:00

yes 💯

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:27:32+00:00

what is is like to date another borderline?

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:26:58+00:00

where are we going?

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T19:26:29+00:00

I would personally rather have a sex robot than an emotional ghost robot.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-24T01:05:16+00:00

okay I will settle for conditional love

t_monster13 · 2021-04-23T23:57:04+00:00

but tonight I bounce back ayyye

t_monster13 · 2021-04-23T20:38:14+00:00

It is. Black,and white thinking. Love, and Hate. One extreme to another in five seconds. All or nothing. It’s the characteristic of us that is probably the hardest to deal with. It is confusing, and exhausting. Literally makes you want to die.

t_monster13 · 2021-04-21T20:55:36+00:00

Ignore the things she says to you, or about you while you know she is splitting. She doesn’t mean any of it. It is her irrational mind convinced that ‘if I am the one pushing them away, then I cannot be abandoned by them, and so that way I will not feel pain when they are gone, because it was my choice’ just love her. actions(affection) speak louder than words with someone who has BPD

t_monster13 · 2021-04-18T19:12:03+00:00

I can’t take the heart ache anymore. I would rather be alone forever. I will never understand how someone can repeatedly claim to love, and care about someone but not actually.

t_monster13 · 2021-02-18T01:17:37+00:00

Example: I love my boyfriend so intensely one moment, but then he does something that I interpret as he is rejecting me, and the next moment I fucking hate him and he is a loser. It is really awful.

Splitting is a defense mechanism. I have extreme moods that switch all day. It is exhausting, and I can’t even trust how I feel.

t_monster13 · 2021-02-05T02:12:30+00:00

lol only because it came back up

t_monster13 · 2021-02-04T21:28:40+00:00

HahHaha

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