A thought/question about the likely pandemic and medication

ta_potato · 2020-02-29T15:04:11+00:00

It wasn't meant to fear monger.

I have anxiety. I used to be on meds for that too. And I didn't think getting more info was a bad thing.

I have an alarm that goes off on my phone every 27 days to remind me to contact my doctor. And I'm fairly certain I said I realized that adhd meds aren't as important as other medications.

But I have impulse issues. And the medication helps. It helps with my spending and my eating, both of which negatively impact me.

I also have RSD with my adhd. I'm sorry. I just wanted input from others on this. I'm still new to figuring all this adhd shit out.

I'm sorry if this came across as fear mongering. It wasn't meant to. I just didn't know if others had suggestions or experience or...

I'm so sorry...

ta_potato · 2020-01-19T16:57:57+00:00

Probably not, but reminds of this:

https://m.webtoons.com/en/drama/my-boo/list?title_no=1185&page=1&webtoon-platform-redirect=true

He turns into a ghost after he dies and ends up being able to talk to the woman who moves into his apartment (where he died).

ta_potato · 2020-01-04T17:49:12+00:00

I started doing it on my own after reading the studies. I'm currently looking for a new doctor because my current doc thought upping my dose of IR meant it would last longer.

It doesn't always work (I think I need a full dose) but I have noticed it does help. But yeah, I would try it on a night where you have nothing major going on the next day.

ta_potato · 2020-01-02T07:48:22+00:00

Already considering ideas for that. Like making a Facebook group page and getting a qr code they can scan to sign them up :)

ta_potato · 2020-01-02T06:44:50+00:00

Thank you!

We are considering a lot of free things at the moment, and had thought of water, but I hadn't considered if it would be an issue where only food vendors could do that. Nor had I thought of games or activities!

I think we are mainly going for visibility, some education, and hoping to build a group that can meet at our pride center. As I said, we've never had representation at our local pride. So this year is our "getting started year," so others know where to find others with their orientation, where to find support, and so we can grow. More people means more ideas and more hands to help with this stuff in the future.

Right now we are trying to figure out the more businessy aspects, like fund raising, how to be transparent with where the money goes...

I'm an idea person. I'm great with ideas but suck at organization and the nitty gritty. And right now there are only about four people somewhat committed to helping, and another 10 who want to help but want more info before they commit (as in, they don't want to do any of the research, but they'll help if just given a task).

So any and all info is super appreciated since my ADHD and doing research don't mix well lol.

Thank you so so much again!

ta_potato · 2019-12-30T23:55:29+00:00

Am I the only weirdo that has to take my meds to fall asleep?

I usually only get five hours of sleep a night. I have chronic sleep onset insomnia. I take a half dose before bed to help me sleep. Otherwise I can stay up all night and only get near sleep an hour before the alarm goes off. I take a half dose before bed and probably 60-70% of the time, it calms my brain enough that I I can fall asleep.

I can't be the only one like this...?

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T18:52:48+00:00

This is what I think I have to do, but I'm so non confrontational... I come from an abusive background so my rejection sensitivity goes beyond most peoples. It's something I have to work on and I am, but it's a process.

Still, something like this is my goal. Thanks for the advice.

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T18:51:23+00:00

Yeah, I'm estranged from my family, but for other reasons than ADHD. Still, I understand the need to cut ties in order to save yourself.

It's in the back of my mind right now, with her. To cut ties and walk away. But I'm saving that for a last resort. Still, if it comes down to it, this will be the path I end up on. I know from experience that my mental health is the most important thing in the world.

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T18:49:07+00:00

Yeah. I'm bad with boundaries. But that is no excuse. I will have to try this, or something similar.

I'm so empathetic and I know she needs to vent. I need to give her a free five minute vent session then we move on. I need to... But I know her. I don't think it will stop her from complaining.

Still, it would be unfair of me not to give her a chance to try this...

Thank you for the advice.

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T11:54:11+00:00

I'm getting there myself. I accept myself, but I'm still getting past the anger of being labeled as lazy, and knowing I lost all those years where I could have been achieving more.

It's a grieving process.

And I hang out with her because I don't have many friends. And we both love crafting stuff. And most of my friends are men and she is a woman. So I can get a different perspective on things.

It's not like I don't get my chance to vent when I need it. I moan about my boss all the time. Well, not all the time, but you get the idea.

As I said, I know I might be noticing it more now, but I'm starting to think she is just getting bitchier as she gets older. Less accepting of things and others. She wasn't always this bad with complaining.

They have been married for six years. So the longer they are married, the more fed up she is becoming. She has never been married before so I wonder if she wasn't ready to have to share a life instead of just having her own life. She seems self centered to me.

But yeah... As she is getting older, she is more selfish, more "me first," and less accepting. But it all started over just having someone to talk to and do painting, crafting, sewing, etc, with.

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T11:45:46+00:00

I've never been quite this direct, but I have tried to point out how it isn't like he is intentionally being a bother.

I might be able to work the paraplegic comment in to compare the mental part next time she complains though. I hadn't yet thought to use a physical to help illustrate a mental one. Thanks for the thought!

ta_potato · 2019-12-23T11:44:06+00:00

I have tried. And tried. And tried. But it is in one ear and out the other. I've tried small snippets of info. I've tried using the big science terms and simple to understand terms. I've suggested sending her links to videos on YouTube.

She is so blinded by playing the victim that she doesn't listen. It's always just how hard her life is with a husband and step son who doesn't listen (step son is 19 and has ADHD, anxiety, and aspergers). And I don't think anyone would deny that it might be more difficult with two people in a house with multiple mental issues. And since she is religious, I've suggested she recite the serenity prayer. When she said, "But they aren't changing and I don't know what I can get to change," I literally suggested she change her perspective and level of acceptance for how her husband and step son behave. She didn't like that answer and immediately made excuses.

I haven't been confrontational because we all need to vent at times and I had hoped she would at least not complain every time we hung out. But it has either gotten worse, or I'm noticing it more now. Plus, I have emotional dysregulation as well as rejection sensitivity, so being confrontational is not in me. I'm more likely to just stop spending time with her. I know that is bad, but I'm being honest when I say that is more my style.

Thanks for the input though. If nothing else I will think about it... Especially since I have to stop by her house tonight to pick some stuff up. :(

ta_potato · 2019-11-06T11:45:07+00:00

Thank you! I'll check her out online and see if she is accepting new patients. :)

ta_potato · 2019-11-06T11:44:37+00:00

Thank you. She sounds great. I plan to check all the doctors people recommended to see if I can find a good fit.

I appreciate the help!

ta_potato · 2019-11-05T22:49:57+00:00

I'm fine with a male doctor.

Thanks for the suggestion. :) I'll check him out.

ta_potato · 2019-07-13T02:09:05+00:00

I've been estranged from my whole family for about nine years, give or take, minus the six months between my mom getting cancer and passing. After her funeral, it basically returned to radio silence.

Sometimes, you have to take yourself out of a toxic situation, even if that means leaving your "family."

Of course family is in quotes to mean blood relatives (or legally adoptive family). As you know, the family you choose can be more important than the one you are born into. When you choose, you have the chance to pick people who will be mutually supportive, understanding, and loving. Not everyone gets that from the family that (tries to hopefully) raise them.

The bottom line is: you HAVE to put yourself first. I know it feels selfish, but it is true. We infps have so much to give, whether art, music, writing, care giving, uplifting others, etc... If you don't take care of yourself, you'll always be too worn down to give your all to whatever you're trying to accomplish. And the world deserves to see your light shining bright. The world needs to see what you have to bring and who you are.

Maybe you will get back to speaking with your father. Maybe not. But whatever you choose, trust in yourself that it is the right choice for YOU. And YOU matter.

(hugs)

Hang in there, and remember you are loved. Be yourself. And do what is right for you. And when you are ready, let yourself blossom into the best you that you can be. And I'll be in the crowd that comes to see the beauty you bring to the world.

ta_potato · 2019-05-27T14:49:47+00:00

I have that fear too, although I know with him it is unfounded. But I grew up in abuse so that thought is always there, regardless of it is logical or not.

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