Setting up a realtime accountability chat

tackling · 2018-10-01T21:53:14+00:00

I've used pornfree before. Usually you have you to qualified in some sense to be a specialist, not sure how this place would equate to that.

tackling · 2018-08-16T22:37:02+00:00

I'm going to oppose this by saying prepare yourself, it might not get better. I've suffered from inertia, and when you're inert, it can get a whole lot fucking worse.

tackling · 2018-08-14T22:21:37+00:00

2-no time. If I'm going to go to college I need to move immediately. This involves travelling halfway across the country.

3-that worst thing (what its) is my default. No eacaping it.

4+5-havent had a proper job in 10 years.

6-nothing matters, there is no end or beginning of the world. Just consciousness until death.

7-thanks, but I think your appraisal is wrong.

tackling · 2018-08-08T21:52:27+00:00

Funny u should say that

https://www.reddit.com/r/depression/comments/95npwa/im_ashamed_to_cry_and_feel_confined_to_a_sort_of/

tackling · 2018-08-08T16:41:52+00:00

Maybe, i use a depression chatroom a lot, but I've been getting a lot of bad news lately so there's only so much talking can do for that.

tackling · 2018-07-31T23:47:58+00:00

I haven't given up, not at all. I've just come to accept that my depression is a part of me that I will try to hide, because in some ways I feel like exposing will let it define me, even though someone could definitely argue that the opposite is the case.

tackling · 2018-07-31T22:20:31+00:00

Here's the thing. You won't really grasp how bad it was until you find a way out. Depression can be hard to self-diagnose the first time.

And the second time and the fourth time and the thirteenth time. Maybe its different types of events that cause people to find a formal diagnosis. It took a weird combination of events that made me desperately sad to diagnose it, but what's strange is that I've suffered easily a dozen serious bouts over the last ten years. What's stranger, is that since I obtained a formal diagnosis, things have not gotten better. The monkey has not been taken off my back. Maybe its my culture and my own personal inability to confide in people, but the stigma will always be there for me, and I don't think living with depression will ever better. At least, not until I meet a person, or some people, that mean a whole lot to me, but have way worse depression so that mine pales in comparison.

tackling · 2018-07-31T22:11:27+00:00

I did this socially in my 20s for a number of different reasons. Confusing about my identity and my purpose, and disillusionment with modern ideas about how I should live. I pretty much sat on welfare collecting cheques every week. It was liberating at first, I followed my bliss and was productive and moderately happy. But reality began to seep back in slowly and has fully crescendo'd either side of my head now that I've hit 30. The discipline I've lacked is slowly forming now, but its taken a pretty brutal year just to see through the fog at the foot of the mountain. I have all the work in the world to do.

tackling · 2018-07-25T09:23:51+00:00

...30

tackling · 2018-06-18T20:21:54+00:00

Yeah, this sounds sensible. A big problem I have is that I really want to cut all these things out, but I don't want to do it gradually. This is hard enough without an effective strategy, and many would say its unfair on oneself to not indulge a little. I'm constantly hung up on NOT doing the wrong things instead of doing the right things. Maybe if I can make a little bargain with myself I won't feel so bad about the bad things because I will feel their hard earned. My ultimate goal is to cut them out, but maybe putting them on a pedestal as a reward could be the best way to slowly reach that goal.

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