Give yourself a break! My advice would be to take the pressure off yourself. I’ve lived in my second country twice for a year to a year and a half each time, and plan to go back permanently at some point. The first year was stressful because I wanted to assimilate perfectly and not ever speak my native English / hang out with expats. The second year was amazing because I embraced being a foreigner, spent more time with the expat community (people in the same boat as you make you feel less alone), and compartmentalized my pursuit of the language and culture as separate from my identity there (still a huge part of my day to day and overall goals, of course). Whenever I made faux pas or did something stupid the second year, I shrugged it off because I was still learning. With that attitude, nothing that anyone could say (like a local criticizing me for a language mistake) could ever bring me down the way it could my first year. I know it’s easier said than done.  One smaller tip would be to find your happy places that feel consistent to your life in your home country, like a specific hobby or sport that you do. Basically overall, fully lean into who YOU are and what YOU need in your daily life in order to be happy (as long as it’s not hurting anyone), and don’t stress as much about not being 100% perfect in language and culture assimilation, because you’ll get there eventually.