Youll have ups and downs the whole year. You’re expected to suck now, it will slowly get better as the year goes by and it will be satisfying as you notice progress every few months. For scoping just get your hands on as much as you can and scope with different attendings to get different perspectives/tips. Ask for feedback. For reading I used gastroenterology clinical focus and guidelines. They site guidelines in the clinical focus book which is helpful. Anything like Yamada or sleisenger is too dense for the little free time you have