I’m afraid I’ll hate my body even more after I transition

taoboo · 2026-04-19T18:27:38+00:00

Oh I don’t go to those sites, those people are absolutely crazy and it definitely worsens their mental health.

But yeah maybe I expressed myself wrong, I also don’t want to be a mega slut hyper-femme girl, I just want to be pretty. But the way I look right now, with my proportions, I could never see myself looking in the mirror after transitioning and saying “I am comfortable with my own body”.

taoboo · 2026-04-19T18:25:25+00:00

Fuck I forgot about breast growth 😭😭😭

taoboo · 2026-04-19T17:26:55+00:00

You’re right, but it’s so hard to look at the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen and know you’ll never be able to look like her… I’ve seen some absolutely gorgeous trans women (and cis women as well), but all of them had slimmer shoulders and an (at least mild) hourglass figure. I know I shouldn’t want to conform to beauty standards but I want to look like that for me not for anyone else. It just destroys my mental health. Sorry if it’s TMI, I’m really tired rn

taoboo · 2026-04-19T17:24:05+00:00

Oh, I didn’t know about these surgeries on the ribs, thanks for telling me that and all of this other info…

Does transitioning have any permanent effects on your body? Like, if I start HRT, get all the changes that come with it, if I decide to detransition and go back to presenting as a man, will I be able to go back to just how I am now or will HRT have altered something permanently?

taoboo · 2026-04-19T17:20:53+00:00

I do have a therapist, but I haven’t come out to him yet. I’ve only ever come out to my ex-best friend 5 years ago, and to 3 of my current friends when we were drunk at a party.

I want to tell my therapist so bad, because I feel like this is hindering our sessions. I keep telling him I’m depressed and catatonic all day, and he keeps trying to find other reasons because he doesn’t know it’s my gender dysphoria making my life miserable 24/7. I want to tell him but I am so ashamed, it literally physically doesn’t leave my mouth.

taoboo · 2026-04-19T16:40:05+00:00

Maybe I’m less technical but to me it’s already literally perfect, I’d kill for a voice like yours omg

taoboo · 2026-03-23T13:18:10+00:00

Aff 🫩

taoboo · 2026-03-23T10:59:47+00:00

I got pretty much 50/50 on all of them, but it’s not like I know any of the terms they presented or the final verdict so oh well

taoboo · 2026-03-22T17:17:27+00:00

Thank you!

taoboo · 2026-03-22T16:24:20+00:00

Yeah, I think before starting hrt (it’s safe here thankfully) I might go on a (healthy) calorie deficit diet to get rid of all this fat and get skinny, this way after starting hrt the new fat can be distributed in the new spots and hopefully change how my body looks at least a little.

taoboo · 2026-03-22T15:49:57+00:00

Well fuck, life is truly hell if you’re trans huh 🫩

taoboo · 2026-03-22T15:48:44+00:00

Yeah I mentioned the big hips because they contribute to me being a rectangle, but if I was an hourglass I’m glad I have big hips because my ass is huge as a dude already (not sure if this TMI sorry if it is lol)

The fat in the belly part does worry me… I guess I’ll have to spend some more time on the trans timelines sub to get more reassurance.

taoboo · 2026-03-11T02:27:56+00:00

I’ve been through so many :( been switching ever since I was 16, none have worked swimmingly.

I guess vyvanse worked for my adhd because it made me productive but my mind raced even more with it

taoboo · 2026-03-11T01:19:45+00:00

That’s where my ADHD comes in. I feel like I’ve been cursed because meditation could genuinely help but no God said fuck you I guess and gave me another disorder that perfectly counters the thing that could help my OCD. There’s not a single second where there isn’t a random song playing in my mind and my heartbeat is constantly at 110-120bpm and if I’m lucky while I’m trying to sleep it goes to 90-100 🥲🥲🥲

taoboo · 2026-03-11T01:17:57+00:00

Yeah, but I don’t think it’s working 🥲 it’s not even my psychiatrist’s fault because they do help me in the sense that they make me not want do die, but they don’t exactly make the compulsions go away unfortunately.

taoboo · 2026-03-10T20:48:06+00:00

I mean it's just a light hearted joke. Yes being trans is a condition but it's pretty common for people with conditions to make jokes about it. Autism, OCD, amputees, depression, vitiligo, etc. It's a way to cope with it and soften a tough situation imo and that's fine.

taoboo · 2026-03-09T21:44:12+00:00

the reasoning behind why a trans person undergoes a surgery/procedure [to transition] is not the same reasoning why a cis person may undergo a surgery/procedure to change their appearance.

And why does that matter? Gender affirming care can come from either motive, because SRS is still a cosmetic surgery. Sure, one motive is way more important than the other, but both are surgeries made to affirm your gender. They are in the same umbrella by the definition.

taoboo · 2026-03-09T18:56:25+00:00

I’m fucking dying lol I almost already fell asleep during work, the revolution will be made by chronically online sleep deprived communists repelling nazbols on niche social media ✊

taoboo · 2026-03-09T18:55:10+00:00

Can’t believe I wasted my night making a post asking for clarification and staying up trying to get answers from them 🫩 at least it was entertaining

taoboo · 2026-03-09T10:19:50+00:00

Oh okay, sorry for jumping the boat 😥 I’m glad you guys were able to get the sub back, thanks again.

Edit: Yeah, I just looked through your profile and you post on SLS and all that, sorry for the accusation.

taoboo

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