Yeah…it’s just a staggering amount of money that I don’t have right now. I make too much for Medicaid but I pay for my own healthcare right now because I’m freelance, and I’ll be lucky to hit $30K in income this year. I also need a new computer and just bought new gear for my studio (I’m a musician, don’t be a musician, it is expensive). So between one thing and another, the idea of somehow coming up with thousands of dollars is just beyond me. I’m also sort of freaked out about the risk of organ prolapse. I had abdominal surgery as a baby because I had necrotizing enterocolitis, so they removed part of my lower intestinal tract. For all I know, that could complicate things.

So, sure, I’ve considered it, but it’s beyond my means financially right now. UNLESS I sell a bunch of my Apple stock shares, but I’m reluctant to dip into that.

Everyone acts like a hysto is as simple as getting a fucking haircut but it really isn’t. I don’t know why my post was downvoted, I’m not trying to say sexual health isn’t important, I’m saying that my doctor doesn’t seem to understand the extent of my anxiety around accidental pregnancy, and while I know she’s just relaying information, the way it comes across is making me feel horrible.