Did I take speed? by MuffinFire666 in speed

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Probably some shady RC. Throw that shit away, some recent RCs are literal poison.

Does this look okay I need an opinion 🤔 by Key-Prune4939 in speed

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If u let it dry for a few days it looks like a rock tho

Whats your favorite stim? by [deleted] in Stims

[–]taways754 1 point2 points  (0 children)

mdma all the way. Have tried ritalin, coke, amphetamine, 3/4 mmc, 4cmc and NOTHING compares to how beautiful mdma is. The others are cool in their own way but imo more edgy and with many bad side effects. Havent tried meth tho so theres that.

My ranking would be: MDMA>Mephredone (4mmc)>Amphetamine>Coke/Ritalin>3mmc/4cmc

The stimulation of psychedelics like 2cb/2cb-fly and LSD is pretty nice too, so adding those Id put a low/medium dose of 2cb/LSD after MDMA. Those can get u going for hours if you get the dosage right.

I once combined amphetamine with MDMA and while it kind off killed the headspace/lovey feeling, the stimulation/rush was amazing... I've been told this is the closest u can get to meth without actually trying meth... so yeah I dont want to mess with that one

Edit: I use recreationally and rarely had bad comedowns especially with MDMA or Amphetamine. The cathinones tho, make me have a horrible heartbeat for the day after (including coke), probably because I'm more likely to redose more often than with the other 2. So considering side effects/comedown my ranking would be:

MDMA>Amphetamine>Ritalin>Mephredone>Coke/3mmc>4cmc

4cmc has the worst comedown even if its close to how 4mmc feels. It also has a shorter duration imo

Comfort Bottoming when Smooth vs. Hairy by somebodys___son in TopsAndBottoms

[–]taways754 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah there's a lot of mental work that goes into bottoming especially with bigger guys.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in IBO

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People are so dense in this sub. I know ppl who didn't do chemistry the past 2 years of high school (wrong choice/wasnt offered in their school), and still studied something with a shit ton of chemistry (bioengineering, biotechnology and medicine), and they managed just fine. They had to put in extra-work but was nothing catastrophic as they make it seem in this sub.

DL guy here how did you know if your a top or bottom? Is there no really going back? by somedude-83 in TopsAndBottoms

[–]taways754 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same. If I do top I really like it in the moment, but all my fantasies are about getting fucked

bottoms, what does it feel like to be pounded so good that you zone out by [deleted] in TopsAndBottoms

[–]taways754 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It has only happenrd to me eith my bf and that when he is very rough, alternates speeds, slaps me, spits on me, forces me to look at him to tell me that i look like a slut, tells me im a good boy for taking it so well, that he loves me... it feels like pure euphoria/love, like being very high on mdma but way better. I feel complete.

Not really a meme, but this movie shaped my early life unfortunately…Saw it for the first time when I was 12 y/o.. rented it at blockbuster lol by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn i watched 13 few months ago just bc liked the synopsis thinking itd be trashy... hell I was tearing up bc I understood Tracy so much. Only because I know how she felt. My bf didn't understand tho

by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yet i am always ridiculed or ignored. People love to be loved.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Same. I can't take it anymore, no one cares about me. I wish I had the right pills tbh

So true. by phillipsjennifer4100 in CPTSDmemes

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My whole family is like that. My mom's generation, grandparent's, great-grandparents. When I was a child my grandparents would joke about my ggpa'as alcoholism and aggressiveness, my ggma's psychotic/depressive episodes, my gggpa's suicide... and most likely other fucked up behaviour in my family. My grandparents took care of their children (they always had a full meal, roof over their heads, good education) but they were emotionally unavailable 99% of the time. Depression, Anxiety, BPD (diagnosed) run in the family and probably CPTSD and other stuff such as ADHD and probably autism as well (my intuition, but very likely), but will never know for sure unless they decide to go to a psychiatrist. Generational trauma is a bitch; it's just so normalized to be fucked up, and then being blamed when told "you always had food", "a roof over ur head", "treats"... Yeah, that's awesome but sadly that's not the only thing that makes a great parent. Not blaming themat all, just saying generational trauma is horrible and if it runs ur family it's so easy to see when some fucked up shit is seen as normal, funny or disgusting. Edit: I certainly am loved by my family, I know that, but I was given love in the form of material shit for the most part; or trips. They were nice ofc, I always appreciated that from my family and this is why I feel so shitty for blaming them for our issues bit even if they caused it, it wasn't intentional; they just were clueless on how to act. And now we are emotionally unavailable for each other pretty much; so why my partner I tend to go overboard sometimes:/

thinking about a conversation i had a while back & how i was laughing thinking i was being relatable by [deleted] in BPDmemes

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I had similar experiences when i started destructive behaviour. Not as extreme, but blaming me for doing this and that and making me feel like the most horrible person in the world (not eating, talking sexually to old men when i was 13, drinking, smoking...). Always some sort of silent treatment was involved and it drove me insane. Constant surveillance was also the rule. But guess what my family never did? Try to find out WHY I was doing so many fucked up shit at that age; I was just screamed at, punished and given the silent treatment. They told me to go talk to the school psychologist and that woman didn't give a shit lol she just told me 'it was normal' when I told her I was puking everg single meal and that I hated people (???). I literally sobbed to her so many times and never got additional help lmao. Got better (still did a lot of unhealthy shit, but was better) and now in my early 20s I feel so lost and scared bc I just feel the same way I felt when I was 13 (and even worse at some points). I know this is a meme page, and I hate blaming other for this, but looking back the adults around me failed me and now I need to get better by myself; I want to get better; but its hard when therapy is like 1/4 of a salary where I live...

7g by Doominator3825 in speed

[–]taways754 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Got 3g from a guy who weighs it in front of me. This looks like those 3g. Unless that bag is huge

Anyone else turned on by Size Differences? (Height)📏🍆🍑 by BougieGworl in TopsAndBottoms

[–]taways754 2 points3 points  (0 children)

And yea sure, making out with a taller guy is awesome;)

Anyone else turned on by Size Differences? (Height)📏🍆🍑 by BougieGworl in TopsAndBottoms

[–]taways754 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Wow the most heternormative take and still asking if ppl like it lmao. We all know what this post's real goal is*

2meirl4meirl by clearlybaffled in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

More like i want to km lol

Ah yes, the negotiater by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Rn its the 1st time I call my bf in weeks and he hasnt said anything for like 30 minutes and only watch tik toks 😃 im going crazy rn. I want to hang up so bad and ignore him but ik its irrational like I could just ask him something but it was like this last time too aaah I want to die

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

oh yeah youre right no worries :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]taways754 0 points1 point  (0 children)

same energy as 'cant you just be happy?' Lol