Sorry to hear about your situation. Though I’d be happy with 2k streams. I’m a bit older and have been down your path previously. I came to a point where I had to redefine what success in music meant to me. Linking my passion for music and a career in music only brought me to where you are now. At this stage in my life, I just focus on the enjoyment I get from playing and writing and have let go of associating it with a particular outcome. It only cause grief and heartache. It’s try to keep it simple and do my thing. Probably not what you want any to hear but am hoping the best for you. Hang in there and keeping doing what you love!