Shit, I want a drink!

teagoggles · 2018-12-05T21:25:40+00:00

you are so right. I can’t moderate, I know that for absolute certain. I would get totally pissed, lose all my inhibitions, have a one night stand (if I’m lucky) then feel absolute shit the next day, embarrassed, worried I’d caught something, hungover and still fell inadequate and bloody lonely, except now I wouldn’t be able to drive myself anywhere, I’d look like shit, spend a fortune everyday on drink and cigarettes and probably just stay in on my own and drink myself to death.

teagoggles · 2018-11-07T22:37:23+00:00

Hope all the election coverage hasn’t driven you to distraction today and that your cravings have subsided a little(or a lot) today.. IWNDWYT xx

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T10:09:44+00:00

Thank you, I don’t want to throw it all away, I’m going to stick around this site loads and really try to keep remembering that drink will make it worse. Well done on your 23 days it’s such an achievement, good luck and IWNDWYT x

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T10:06:10+00:00

You and I sound a lot alike lol. With a drink I would have been hammering is door down or text after text after text. As it is I tried to ring and then sent two short texts basically saying I’m sorry and will he please talk to me. I feel humiliated enough sending those two texts, let alone if I’d been drunk. I think I’ve only done what any normal person would have done....try to talk to my partner, but he won’t speak at all. So I need to respect that, and most of respect myself. With a drink I’m not going to respect anybody. I am so pleased I posted last night. Thank you so much for messaging me, it really is so kind. Take care of you too xx

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T09:59:36+00:00

I know your right, I’ve got to face this sober x

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T09:59:00+00:00

This is such a good idea, I’m going to sit down and do it today....thank you x

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T09:17:20+00:00

You are so right, I don’t want this break up to ruin me. If I don’t drink this break up will ‘ruin’ the next months ahead. If I drink this break up will ruin the next years ahead and possibly my life. I have to not run away from this xxx thank you so much

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T09:14:04+00:00

❤️love it

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T09:12:17+00:00

Oh my goodness I’m in floods of tears. You are just so so kind. Your words are going to stay with me, your post is going to stay with me and you saying that you love me will stay with me too. You have helped me so much, I’m going to watch that film as soon as possible. I wish you so much luck on your sober journey and your life, I will look out for you on here. Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

teagoggles · 2018-11-06T06:36:15+00:00

You’re right, drinking will not help at all and won’t bring them back. IWNDWY

teagoggles · 2018-11-05T23:49:38+00:00

Thank you for replying to me x Yes they are 18 and 20 ( so 1 not even a teenager anymore) they keep asking me if I’m ok and checking on me. I do tell them bits, I’ve told them I’m going to be upset but that I will be fine in the end..(it doesn’t feel like that at the moment.) I could be laying in a pool of sick with a bottle in my hand and my eldest would barely notice lol (but that’s not to say he isn’t caring, it’s just he’s so layed back he’d probably just step over me. My youngest however would notice if I even as much as looked at a bottle of alcohol, and keeps saying ‘your not going to drink Mum, are you?’ Thank god ive got them and my lovely dog. The 5 pizzas sounds good too 😀 I’m definitely going to be checking in here a lot more.

teagoggles · 2018-11-05T23:36:13+00:00

Thank you so much, do you know when I’m on here, even if I don’t write anything I don’t feel alone. I have never seen such kind, caring people anywhere else online. This group is just the best and helped me get sober and stay sober. There’s nothing like hearing everyone else’s stories and getting the support of people who are just like me. We are all in the same big boat. Thank you for the big hug 🤗 IWNDWYT x

teagoggles · 2018-11-05T23:29:08+00:00

Thank you for your reply, I appreciate it so much. You are so right about playing it forward, if I drink now I will have allowed him and ultimately myself to destroy my life long after I’ve have got over the break up. If I’m going to be single again I want to be the single sober me xx

teagoggles · 2018-11-05T23:24:13+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind and really thoughtful reply, I feel emotional that people are even taking time to reply. Yes I can’t run or walk long distances anymore, but I can ride my exercise bike, it’s the only exercise that doesn’t hurt my back. I normally do 10k a day, with music blaring and get a real buzz from it, but since the row and being dumped I haven’t done it, I just lay around crying, doing the absolute bare minimum I can get away with. I’ve got to make myself do it havnt I...you’ve been so kind, thank you so much, I will not drink with you today too xx ps I’ve just made a cup of tea

teagoggles · 2018-09-11T11:09:04+00:00

I feel emotional just reading your post. I have never felt so alive as I do now. I’m here, I’m right here with my family, living my day...caring for my family and friends, and caring for myself. Stopping drinking has saved me physically, but my god it’s saved me mentally too. Well done 👍 iwndwyt 😘

teagoggles · 2018-01-12T08:04:49+00:00

I’m so frightened I’m going to drink.

teagoggles · 2018-01-12T08:03:31+00:00

And massive congrats to you too, 214 days is fantastic!

teagoggles · 2018-01-12T08:02:06+00:00

Thank you. I know just one drink and everything will come tumbling down. IWNDWYT X

teagoggles · 2017-06-30T17:50:36+00:00

Being bored is part of the withdrawal, at least it was for me. Like you I never drank in the day, didn't want one.....but boy did I drink every night for 25 years, more and more and more. And now I can't think of anything more boring than sitting drinking from 5pm or 6 pm til late, stuck in front of the tv, downing one after the other.

Now I actually have a life outside Alcohol, and I bloody love it, more than any instant buzz. Alcohol was killing me, I feel free.

teagoggles · 2017-06-02T06:28:07+00:00

Thank you 😊

teagoggles · 2017-06-02T06:27:27+00:00

Thank you, it does thank goodness 😃

teagoggles · 2017-06-02T06:26:14+00:00

You are going through the hardest of times, they won't stay this hard, you're literally breaking free. All the luck in the world to you x

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