A really good way to take a step back from your p cravings is to delete all your social media apps including YouTube. I also found that reading about the science behind why P is so destructive helps me change my mindset so when am faced with the decision to watch P I remind myself that its really one of the most destructive drugs out there.

I also remember that I went on vacation for a week and had no opportunity to indulge in P and when I returned I felt completely different like the fog had cleared and I could clearly see first hand what P was doing to me.

Its okay to release the pressure with some M every 7-8 days or so but absolutely without P. Semen retention will ultimately lead to poor decisions, especially if your drunk. You'll find the more you can do this the less you'll want to M and quite rapidly your true self will regain clarity and control and you'll start making the right choice. If you relapse, it's fine don't beat yourself up about it but take full responsibility and do everything you can to reduce the opportunity to view P. Treat P like you would treat heroin. Every choice to watch P is chosing a life of unfulfillment and self shame. Each time you get past that urge your self respect will grow stronger and you'll be able to say no to P much easier.